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So I'm going on a party cruise tonight. I don't want to drink. It's going to be bad because Sari will, of course, want me to drink. I just want to take it easy.
I miss John. I've decided I don't want anyone else but him. That's how that goes.
I hope I can be healthy soon. My body has had enough of drinking.
Adrian got a tattoo today, and then he wanted a drink to kill the pain, so we went out to the Surf Bar. It was fun-he said he feels very comfortable with me and then started dancing in the bar-but then I walked outside and tripped on the sidewalk and slammed into a parked Ford. My knees are all messed up now. I feel so stupid. oy. He took me home after that.
Time for the party cruise...I guess I'll take a cab back tonight. I would really prefer not to, but I can't deal with a subway tonight. I need to get myself together. I'm so concerned about myself. I'm probably not half as bad as I think I am, but still.
I miss John. I've decided I don't want anyone else but him. That's how that goes.
I hope I can be healthy soon. My body has had enough of drinking.
Adrian got a tattoo today, and then he wanted a drink to kill the pain, so we went out to the Surf Bar. It was fun-he said he feels very comfortable with me and then started dancing in the bar-but then I walked outside and tripped on the sidewalk and slammed into a parked Ford. My knees are all messed up now. I feel so stupid. oy. He took me home after that.
Time for the party cruise...I guess I'll take a cab back tonight. I would really prefer not to, but I can't deal with a subway tonight. I need to get myself together. I'm so concerned about myself. I'm probably not half as bad as I think I am, but still.