totally nervous
the only person who will know what i'm talking about is alison, and alison - i am so sorry to be going on and on about this. but, this whole party is making me really upset.
i'm kicking myself for changing the date of the party. 15 people would have showed, and it would have been awesome. but stupid me decided to change the date again because one person who i love couldn't come, and now only 7 people have said yes. 15 is a lot. i should have just accepted it. and now people aren't sure if they can come on the new date. i know it shouldn't matter, i should be happy with it and forget about it until it happens, but it's making me freak out. i think about it constantly. my heart is in pain from being nervous. part of me feels like all my friends hate me for re-scheduling so many times and for leaving like 50 gazillion updates in their e-mail box, and part of me feels like people aren't rsvp'ing because they're mad at me. so i don't know what to do.
i know it shouldn't matter. it's just a party. i keep telling myself that. but i'm REALLY embarrassed that i'm such a horrible hostess and changed the date three times and now no one is responding to the new date. i'm going to cry. i really am.
i'm kicking myself for changing the date of the party. 15 people would have showed, and it would have been awesome. but stupid me decided to change the date again because one person who i love couldn't come, and now only 7 people have said yes. 15 is a lot. i should have just accepted it. and now people aren't sure if they can come on the new date. i know it shouldn't matter, i should be happy with it and forget about it until it happens, but it's making me freak out. i think about it constantly. my heart is in pain from being nervous. part of me feels like all my friends hate me for re-scheduling so many times and for leaving like 50 gazillion updates in their e-mail box, and part of me feels like people aren't rsvp'ing because they're mad at me. so i don't know what to do.
i know it shouldn't matter. it's just a party. i keep telling myself that. but i'm REALLY embarrassed that i'm such a horrible hostess and changed the date three times and now no one is responding to the new date. i'm going to cry. i really am.