If I speak up then, no one will hear.
I feel sick.
I am in a very negative mood.
Why am I even home right now?
I don't know.
Things are getting uncomforatable.
Time to put this voice to work soon.
I want to be so many different places tonight. I want to be at Jenny's, I want to be in the city with Steoph, Ryan, Kelsey, and Brenna. I want to be at Em's eating Turkey and drinking champagne, I want to go Julia's party and see some of the peeps from Urban, I want to see CERTAIN people, I know I won't see..., I want to be here at home.
I really want to jump off a cliff.
Way to start a New Year...
Ugh, I'm not going to be a downer. But, I feel like the only thing that will make me happy right now, makes me a terrible person.
P.S. I have come to a decision. I AM going to Boston and New York this month (in like a week in half to be exact) with some coworkers. I'm excited. I am nervous, I am doing it.
"No I won't do it again, I don't want to pretend
If it can't be like before I've got to let it end
I don't want what I was, I've had a change of head
But maybe someday...
Yeah maybe someday
I've got to let it go and leave it gone
Just walk away, stop it going on
Get too scared to jump if I wait too long
But maybe someday...
No I won't do it some more, doesn't make any sense
If it can't be like it was, I've got to let it rest
I don't want what I did, I had a change of tense
But maybe someday..."
I am in a very negative mood.
Why am I even home right now?
I don't know.
Things are getting uncomforatable.
Time to put this voice to work soon.
I want to be so many different places tonight. I want to be at Jenny's, I want to be in the city with Steoph, Ryan, Kelsey, and Brenna. I want to be at Em's eating Turkey and drinking champagne, I want to go Julia's party and see some of the peeps from Urban, I want to see CERTAIN people, I know I won't see..., I want to be here at home.
I really want to jump off a cliff.
Way to start a New Year...
Ugh, I'm not going to be a downer. But, I feel like the only thing that will make me happy right now, makes me a terrible person.
P.S. I have come to a decision. I AM going to Boston and New York this month (in like a week in half to be exact) with some coworkers. I'm excited. I am nervous, I am doing it.
"No I won't do it again, I don't want to pretend
If it can't be like before I've got to let it end
I don't want what I was, I've had a change of head
But maybe someday...
Yeah maybe someday
I've got to let it go and leave it gone
Just walk away, stop it going on
Get too scared to jump if I wait too long
But maybe someday...
No I won't do it some more, doesn't make any sense
If it can't be like it was, I've got to let it rest
I don't want what I did, I had a change of tense
But maybe someday..."