cyanide's the plan.....forget the calc.

[antiklepto]

don't worry, I'm not actually suicidal over math. I'm just joking about one of those things people always say not to joke about. oops. But yeah, I officially hate calculas. I know I should do my homework more, and maybe then I would understand it. Its just too easy to not do it when its not for a grade. Tonight though, I tried to do some of my project, and was doing alright on this one problem, until I ran into a minor little algebriac thing I wasn't sure how to do. So I asked my dad (being a math teacher and all). Bad Idea. You'd think I would learn by now, he can't answere a simple question, he has to see the whole problem. Then he starts to ask why I did this and that, so I try to tell him, and he says I'm wrong and shows me this compleatly different way than I learned in class. So I try to explain that that wasn't how I learned it and he basically says no, i'm right your wrong. (I looked it up..i was wrong, but we still never did what he told me to do) So I'm already pretty mad about that, but I continue on untill I get near the end, and get stuck again. It was some fractiony-exponant thing that I always have hated. Dad, lookingover my shoulder, barely gives me a seconed to think about it before he askes "so, what's the problem?" I say I'm not sure how to do it, and I'm thinking about it, and he starts spewing out directions, and, once again, I have no idea what he's talking about. When I tell him I don't know what he means, he startes yelling at me telling me that I shouldn't be in this class because i don't know the basics, that's why I don't pass tests (i have never failed a test), and all this shit about the problems with me being taught to fast. And the I start to cry. Not bawling or anything, but my eyes water and i have to blink really hard to keep the tears from going. I hate that. I always cry when he yells at me for this, which is a lot. I just can't stand being yelled at and told I'm stupid just because I forget how to do something i learned 3 years ago. Did he ever consider that maybe, just maybe, I'm not gifted with extraordinary math skills like he is? I'm not dumb just becuase I can't do one little thing. I hate it. all i asked for help on was one simple little part of a problem, and I endo up getting yelled at and in tears. I'm not a crier, I dont usually tear up, but I always do when he yells at me.

I didn't mean to bitch that much about it....and i was going to write about some other stuff, but now I'm not going to. Fuck math.