It was over before it began, and there's nothing left to say.

[antiheroeternal]

I really need to get my sleeping schedule straight. I've been going to sleep at 8:30 am. Not healthy.

Not much going on, just checking in.

Well, not much going on in the physical plane. My head's jumbled.

Part lack of sleep, part overactive thought. Yay for me.

I really should take a nap, but I think that might even make things worse.

Currently playing on my playlist: Silverstein - Smash to Pieces

Lyrics:

"Never Again.
I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine.
Maybe when you find out that I'm dead,
you'll realize what you did to me.

[Chorus]
And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Would you be there for me?
If I can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away.

No, I won't let it go.
Douse myself in gasoline,
So don't save me when you come into the fire.
I'd rather die than have to see your smile.

[Chorus]
You made me swear [(x2)]
I, I can't sleep.
Realize all these things that you took from me.
Smash my heart, (you made me swear)
Into dust.(you made me swear)
Suffocate my mind.(you made me swear)
Tear at me from inside.(you made me swear)
Smash apart what you've created.
How can I ever stop you from crushing my soul?
It was It was yours, yours to begin with.

And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Would you be there for me?
If I can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away."

That's it for now, then. I'll be off.