wheres the day that never ended
this weekend was pretty cool. the symphony was amazing, especially the schumann piece. i guess i really prefer romantic music. also, i got my ticket signed by midori which was pretty awesome.
today i went to my second cousin's second birthday. is that confusing? i didn't talk like the whole time because i had nothing to say and no one that i particularly felt like talking to. had my uncle been there, maybe. but it just went really slow. i watched the raiders game, though, which made it go by faster. except they won. *gag*
my cousin is really cute. they gave him a harmonica and he just kept running over to everyone and trying to play it. he squeals. it's great. too bad i have no maternal instincts whatsoever and have no idea how to talk to him/treat him.
it's a ridiculous thing, i am just riding in the car with my parents just talking to them, or i lean on my mom in the grocery store..and i can just imagine what it's going to be like when they're not here anymore. i know it's like horribly morbid and not something i should think about, and that i should just like enjoy my life while they are here..but i am almost in tears just at the thought of not having them. it's scary as hell, because i don't know how i'm going to deal with it when i get older. like, what am i going to do and who am i going to talk to? who fills that void? it's scary.
stephen came on aim and left me a message and signed off like the second i came on! that sucks so bad. i get to talk to him like 3 times a year. i miss that motherflucker.
okay i am going to go to bed and sleep in 'til 9. hooray for mondays.
today i went to my second cousin's second birthday. is that confusing? i didn't talk like the whole time because i had nothing to say and no one that i particularly felt like talking to. had my uncle been there, maybe. but it just went really slow. i watched the raiders game, though, which made it go by faster. except they won. *gag*
my cousin is really cute. they gave him a harmonica and he just kept running over to everyone and trying to play it. he squeals. it's great. too bad i have no maternal instincts whatsoever and have no idea how to talk to him/treat him.
it's a ridiculous thing, i am just riding in the car with my parents just talking to them, or i lean on my mom in the grocery store..and i can just imagine what it's going to be like when they're not here anymore. i know it's like horribly morbid and not something i should think about, and that i should just like enjoy my life while they are here..but i am almost in tears just at the thought of not having them. it's scary as hell, because i don't know how i'm going to deal with it when i get older. like, what am i going to do and who am i going to talk to? who fills that void? it's scary.
stephen came on aim and left me a message and signed off like the second i came on! that sucks so bad. i get to talk to him like 3 times a year. i miss that motherflucker.
okay i am going to go to bed and sleep in 'til 9. hooray for mondays.