more proof that I'm one of the most open introverts you'll ever know
So, I randomly came out to my Personality Seminar today.
It happened when A., G., and I were leading a discussion about Developmental Psychology & Personality. A. was talking about identity formation and rebellion. I brought up how I thought I had never rebelled, but thinking more about it right then and there, I realized that in a way I had. I mentioned how I attended Christian schools from preschool up until I graduated from highschool and how when we wrote a paper about homosexuality in 11th grade Bible class, I was the only one who didn't think it was a sin (I used evidence from the Bible and various theologians to back it up).
When A. asked me about what I thought shaped my contrary-to-my-school-enivornment's beliefs about homosexuality, I said, grinning, "Other than being bi?," and smiled even more when a couple people laughed with me. I then said it probably also had to do with being raised to not see the world as black/white, the whole "Openness" trait thing, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera.
Today was the first time I've actually done something like that. I mean, I don't hide the fact I'm bi (well, except when it comes to my family, and it's not really hiding as much as just not bringing it up), but it's not something I go around announcing. Actually, I've never announced it before -- not on a person-to-person manner. Even those of you who know me in RL first found out about it through this journal (or if you're simplelyric, through my Bindlestitch days). I didn't actually personally tell you that I'm bi. I just wrote about it.
After class, A. told me that she had had absolutely no idea, and wanted to make sure that I knew she was bi as well (which I did -- the night of the Sigur Rós show last October, she briefly mentioned dating women). I told her it's just not something that I found relevant to bring up. In any case, I'm really glad that both her and H. now know, since I do consider them to be friends.
So yeah: I outed myself to seven fellow Experimental students and my professor/thesis committee member, and I feel fucking wonderful.
It happened when A., G., and I were leading a discussion about Developmental Psychology & Personality. A. was talking about identity formation and rebellion. I brought up how I thought I had never rebelled, but thinking more about it right then and there, I realized that in a way I had. I mentioned how I attended Christian schools from preschool up until I graduated from highschool and how when we wrote a paper about homosexuality in 11th grade Bible class, I was the only one who didn't think it was a sin (I used evidence from the Bible and various theologians to back it up).
When A. asked me about what I thought shaped my contrary-to-my-school-enivornment's beliefs about homosexuality, I said, grinning, "Other than being bi?," and smiled even more when a couple people laughed with me. I then said it probably also had to do with being raised to not see the world as black/white, the whole "Openness" trait thing, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera.
Today was the first time I've actually done something like that. I mean, I don't hide the fact I'm bi (well, except when it comes to my family, and it's not really hiding as much as just not bringing it up), but it's not something I go around announcing. Actually, I've never announced it before -- not on a person-to-person manner. Even those of you who know me in RL first found out about it through this journal (or if you're simplelyric, through my Bindlestitch days). I didn't actually personally tell you that I'm bi. I just wrote about it.
After class, A. told me that she had had absolutely no idea, and wanted to make sure that I knew she was bi as well (which I did -- the night of the Sigur Rós show last October, she briefly mentioned dating women). I told her it's just not something that I found relevant to bring up. In any case, I'm really glad that both her and H. now know, since I do consider them to be friends.
So yeah: I outed myself to seven fellow Experimental students and my professor/thesis committee member, and I feel fucking wonderful.