Break in General
Today was good. Really a semi-stress free day. Went to physical therapy, then out to dinner with my mom. We went to the Cheesecake Factory. It was good. Went to the mall, got a new pair of jeans and a new shirt. Went to Peter's house, he farted, alot. I think something crawled up there and died. It was good times.
Thought about break some. It really has not been a good one, I am ready to leave. It has been disappointing that the people I thought that I would see alot, mostly Sara and Derrick, don't give a damn. It makes me value the end of last school year and somewhat this summer even more I guess. I had fun with them and thought I got close, but I don't think that they even think twice. It never seemed to matter even if I was in the room. Why breathe? Everyone has had that feeling before, it is just all the time for me among certain others. I have asked why? They don't know, I just bother them, no explaination. So what can I do? If I could change what annoys them I would, but I never got an answer to what that was. I know I can't change myself, and I won't, but I can modify and am willing to do so. But I can't be the only effort.
On the flip side, I've seen kate, lisa, peter, katie, and tracy alot. Things kind of fell apart with kate when the duo got back together, but I still very much loved the time we did spend together this break, It really meant alot - really good to talk to and just see. Lisa and I talked some, and she is just really amazing sometimes. Katie and Tracy were just absolutely wonderful to be around. Things really changed with Tracy and I, for the better. Much less drama, much more amazing times together. And then there is Peter. I really didn't know if we would still hang out after we all left for school. I think I have seen him the most since I have been home and that is wonderful. He always can make me smile and there is never a underlying tone around him. Everything is straight forward (gayly forward if you will) around him. It is really nice to not have all the drama. He kind of made break a little worth while.
I leave on Monday and I feel some sadness that I probably won't see Sara and Derrick. I really wish they would have been more of a part of my break. It doesn't seem possible though.
If I don't talk to anyone before I leave, I hope that your breaks are worth while. I wish you all a good year and hope that you make it through the rest of the school year (Florida for Katie :))
Much Love to My Friends, thank you for touching my life in some small or large way.
Thought about break some. It really has not been a good one, I am ready to leave. It has been disappointing that the people I thought that I would see alot, mostly Sara and Derrick, don't give a damn. It makes me value the end of last school year and somewhat this summer even more I guess. I had fun with them and thought I got close, but I don't think that they even think twice. It never seemed to matter even if I was in the room. Why breathe? Everyone has had that feeling before, it is just all the time for me among certain others. I have asked why? They don't know, I just bother them, no explaination. So what can I do? If I could change what annoys them I would, but I never got an answer to what that was. I know I can't change myself, and I won't, but I can modify and am willing to do so. But I can't be the only effort.
On the flip side, I've seen kate, lisa, peter, katie, and tracy alot. Things kind of fell apart with kate when the duo got back together, but I still very much loved the time we did spend together this break, It really meant alot - really good to talk to and just see. Lisa and I talked some, and she is just really amazing sometimes. Katie and Tracy were just absolutely wonderful to be around. Things really changed with Tracy and I, for the better. Much less drama, much more amazing times together. And then there is Peter. I really didn't know if we would still hang out after we all left for school. I think I have seen him the most since I have been home and that is wonderful. He always can make me smile and there is never a underlying tone around him. Everything is straight forward (gayly forward if you will) around him. It is really nice to not have all the drama. He kind of made break a little worth while.
I leave on Monday and I feel some sadness that I probably won't see Sara and Derrick. I really wish they would have been more of a part of my break. It doesn't seem possible though.
If I don't talk to anyone before I leave, I hope that your breaks are worth while. I wish you all a good year and hope that you make it through the rest of the school year (Florida for Katie :))
Much Love to My Friends, thank you for touching my life in some small or large way.