I love you even though it isn't fair......
Well work has really sucked lately...I am really starting to not like it.....I'm there 2 much, especially this week......and just everything blows.....last night I drank 2 much.....it was cool.....but I honestly didn't even have that great of a time.....I thought I would have but the night kind of sucked....and I had to work a double today....that blew I am so fucking exhausted....and I just wanted to come home 2nite and talk to her.....but she tells me she's going out for a cigarette....and a cigarette turns into the world for her.....and I don't care...but I dunno I just miss her and she never tells me when she's doing and I just wait up for her all night, which is stupid I shouldn't, but I wanna, but I'm just really fucking tired.....and I wanna relax and go to bed but I dunno......its just not really fair.....all we talk about is how good for each other we are and how lucky we are 2 have each other....but I mean I'm always there for her, and she's here for me....but only when she needs me it seems....like I dunno, it just sucks becuz I'd wait around forever for her, and she'd prolly rather be somewhere else, which kinda sucks......but what the fuck......I'm just grumpy but I have a fucking point...I'm just exhausted, I need sleep, BUT I HAVE TO WORK IN THE FUCKING MORNING AGAIN! I fuckin hate this....I mean I suck I don't deserve shit, but why can't just 1 thing go my fucking way....and I'm just tired of all the bullshit I just wish I could rather be somewhere fucking else......fuck this