The Last Day...
Well I dont know where to start? Today is the last day of my drug use, pills and pot both. I am happy to say this! Eventually if i dont stop now they will ruin me, and my chances of being happy not only with a job but a family as well, so you heard it here first!
Well not much happened today really. Went to work, it was retarded as usual then i went to a friends and watched Napoleon Dynamite, it was great!
My mom thinks i am some sort of addict, first of all i have never bought pills! they have always been givin to me, second i have taken pills maybe three times in the last month and a half. Now to the pot business, i quit a while ago, then i did it on new years and i wont do it anymore, because it makes me eat way too much and way too tired...So i am done, the girl i like i know disapproves of the pill taking and i would too i really dont know why i take them, it makes me feel good i guess, helps me deal with some of the pain that i feel in my heart. Most of the time i am a cheery, happy, loving person and everyone knows it but then there are other times that i just get really down on myself because i am alone and i'm sorry to say this but tired of living, not to the point that i would kill myself though, i could never do that to myself and the people i love. Just to the point where i could care less about anything and everything that is going on around me!
Drugs arent needed to have a good time and i know this because i have friends that make me laugh so much and i dont even need to be high or pilled out to realize it...I wish i could go back to the first day i took those hydros and just say no, but everyone has a breaking point you know. I have way too much to live for than just throwing my life away with pills, so to whomever i have hurt with my drugs I'm Sorry! Anyways i think that is all, until next time i guess!
Nick
Well not much happened today really. Went to work, it was retarded as usual then i went to a friends and watched Napoleon Dynamite, it was great!
My mom thinks i am some sort of addict, first of all i have never bought pills! they have always been givin to me, second i have taken pills maybe three times in the last month and a half. Now to the pot business, i quit a while ago, then i did it on new years and i wont do it anymore, because it makes me eat way too much and way too tired...So i am done, the girl i like i know disapproves of the pill taking and i would too i really dont know why i take them, it makes me feel good i guess, helps me deal with some of the pain that i feel in my heart. Most of the time i am a cheery, happy, loving person and everyone knows it but then there are other times that i just get really down on myself because i am alone and i'm sorry to say this but tired of living, not to the point that i would kill myself though, i could never do that to myself and the people i love. Just to the point where i could care less about anything and everything that is going on around me!
Drugs arent needed to have a good time and i know this because i have friends that make me laugh so much and i dont even need to be high or pilled out to realize it...I wish i could go back to the first day i took those hydros and just say no, but everyone has a breaking point you know. I have way too much to live for than just throwing my life away with pills, so to whomever i have hurt with my drugs I'm Sorry! Anyways i think that is all, until next time i guess!
Nick