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I really should post about the good things going on in my life
I'm tired of being treated like I'm the evil one because I don't talk to my father anymore. He was (and still is) awful to me for my entire life. The only interactions he ever had with me involved him telling me how horrible of a person I am, how I can never do anything right, and how I will never be able to support myself or get a decent job. And yet, I am treated like the villan because I don't talk to him anymore. He is not the victim here. Stop trying to sell him to me as this great heroic person who didn't have malicious intentions. Telling your 9 year old daughter that you hate her is malicious and you cannot convince me that he is a good person.
The guy I was dating and my sister are both super quick to tell me when I am being mean, passive aggressive, bratty, difficult, or other unflattering things. I cannot remember EVER telling anyone they were acting a certain way like they are so quick to do to me. I keep asking myself which one of us is not nice? Kris went on a big soliloquy to a mutual friend about how I "don't sugar coat things" and I am "brutally honest" and "mean" and that I won't "hesitate to hurt your feelings" which upsets me because I don't try to hurt people's feelings but I don't lie to their face either (which I watch my sister do all the time). I will be honest and tell you the things you don't want to hear, but I will try to at least be gentile about it explain why I feel that way so you understand. I know that manipulation is a powerful life skill, but I try to not manipulate people - especially my friends.
I'm not going to lie to you and tell you your business logo looks good "because that is the nice thing to say" when it poorly represents you. I will say "mean things" and tell you why I think it doesn't represent you and offer suggestions to improve upon what you have because I am the mean one and "good friends" will tell you it looks good and "be supportive."
I was going on actual dates with the guy I was involved with. My sister (let's not forget, she is the nicer of the two of us) was doing that sing-songy "Ooooh, Carly has a date tonight!" thing that most of us grew out of in junior high. Thanks for making fun of the fact that someone might actually like me. It is so nice of you to boost my self-esteem by making me feel bad about going on a date. And I am the mean, passive aggressive one.
I'm so tired of my emotional energy being used up dealing with this crap. I tried to move away from it and it followed me and amplified.
How I am handling this makes me "passive agressive" and "mean" and I'm "in a bad mood all the time." I don't talk. I don't include them. I do my own thing which makes me a bad person in their eyes.
If I am such a bad person, why do they so desperately hold on to me? Why do they get their feelings hurt when I tell them I don't want to live with them anymore? If I am mean, passive aggressive, and difficult, shouldn't they be glad I am removing myself from their life?
Okay, so one good thing did happen but I don't think I posted it here. I won a sewing machine in the Instructables Summer Sewing Contest for my Ice Cream Sundae Plush project.
I'm tired of being treated like I'm the evil one because I don't talk to my father anymore. He was (and still is) awful to me for my entire life. The only interactions he ever had with me involved him telling me how horrible of a person I am, how I can never do anything right, and how I will never be able to support myself or get a decent job. And yet, I am treated like the villan because I don't talk to him anymore. He is not the victim here. Stop trying to sell him to me as this great heroic person who didn't have malicious intentions. Telling your 9 year old daughter that you hate her is malicious and you cannot convince me that he is a good person.
The guy I was dating and my sister are both super quick to tell me when I am being mean, passive aggressive, bratty, difficult, or other unflattering things. I cannot remember EVER telling anyone they were acting a certain way like they are so quick to do to me. I keep asking myself which one of us is not nice? Kris went on a big soliloquy to a mutual friend about how I "don't sugar coat things" and I am "brutally honest" and "mean" and that I won't "hesitate to hurt your feelings" which upsets me because I don't try to hurt people's feelings but I don't lie to their face either (which I watch my sister do all the time). I will be honest and tell you the things you don't want to hear, but I will try to at least be gentile about it explain why I feel that way so you understand. I know that manipulation is a powerful life skill, but I try to not manipulate people - especially my friends.
I'm not going to lie to you and tell you your business logo looks good "because that is the nice thing to say" when it poorly represents you. I will say "mean things" and tell you why I think it doesn't represent you and offer suggestions to improve upon what you have because I am the mean one and "good friends" will tell you it looks good and "be supportive."
I was going on actual dates with the guy I was involved with. My sister (let's not forget, she is the nicer of the two of us) was doing that sing-songy "Ooooh, Carly has a date tonight!" thing that most of us grew out of in junior high. Thanks for making fun of the fact that someone might actually like me. It is so nice of you to boost my self-esteem by making me feel bad about going on a date. And I am the mean, passive aggressive one.
I'm so tired of my emotional energy being used up dealing with this crap. I tried to move away from it and it followed me and amplified.
How I am handling this makes me "passive agressive" and "mean" and I'm "in a bad mood all the time." I don't talk. I don't include them. I do my own thing which makes me a bad person in their eyes.
If I am such a bad person, why do they so desperately hold on to me? Why do they get their feelings hurt when I tell them I don't want to live with them anymore? If I am mean, passive aggressive, and difficult, shouldn't they be glad I am removing myself from their life?
Okay, so one good thing did happen but I don't think I posted it here. I won a sewing machine in the Instructables Summer Sewing Contest for my Ice Cream Sundae Plush project.