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It's official, Ryan and I are moving out of our house on May 31st. I had already made the decision that I needed to save money for grad school, and I couldn't risk another year in which Ryan might not be able to shoulder his part of the rent. It's coming up on six months now that I've paid all the bills, and I really have no way of justifying

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[birrz]

I don't want to sound pompous but why is Ryan even still friends with that guy? He's a total loser and shouldn't be around to rub off on Ryan.

I'm sorry about your uncle and grandmother. My great grandma had severe Alzheimer's and it was so upsetting and hard on the family and she made it even worse because she was so damn stubborn! What is with older ladies being so rigid? Their personalities end up being tougher than they really are.

I wish you the best of luck in classes, as always. I am glad to hear that you're excited about graduate school! I won't be going that route for a long, long time, especially if I go with my current plan to obtain another B.A. at the Art Institute. At the very least I know of people who have secured a solid, well-paying job before they graduate from the Ai so I know I will have plenty of options to pay of my slew of student loan debt.

Where is Ryan going to live? I honestly don't know what to think anymore because I think he is such a great guy and has a good head on his shoulders but he just doesn't try to achieve anything. It's really unfortunate because I want to see you two be successful together and happy and worry-free. You both deserve it.

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I think Ryan feels sorry for Randall too. And, let's face it, Ryan doesn't have any friends of his own - Randall is the only person he talks to from his high school group of friends, and I think he misses male companionship sometimes.

My grandmother has always had a very weak personality. My mom told me that she'd be bed ridden for days over silly things like bad news. So, she makes a huge deal out of little things, which may have been okay when she was younger, but now her body can't really take that kind of panic.

I'm essentially getting another BA as well, except it'll be an RN. The programs I'm applying for integrate RN-MA-PHD into one big shiny package, so I become a registered nurse, a nurse with a masters, then a nurse with a PhD in nursing practice in the course of three years. Normally, it would take a lot lot longer, but they pack each semester and include summer sessions into the program.

I think the AI is a good place for you. I bet you'll really enjoy the kinds of things you'll be doing, and it will make a good amount of money. I'm excited for you.

Ryan will undoubtedly find an apartment somewhere - I'm guessing back at the place he lived before that required no background check and rent any time of the month in any payment form. What with his poor credit, I can't see him getting a place where they did a background check. Unless they're desperate.

I don't know what to think anymore either - it's like everything is perfect about him except his ambition and motivation. Sometimes it feels like the only way he'll get anywhere is if someone wraps a leash around his neck and drags him through every step. I just wish he could do it so we could be happy and successful together...but as time goes on, that prospect gets dimmer. Unfortunately, it's hard to let go, and I know I won't let myself give up until the very last moment - which is probably bad more than it is good.