Sep 27, 2008 15:07
a little strange,
the black order,
fail!,
dunt like it,
angst and woe,
mana,
14th noah,
lenalee,
i haz a spoilers?,
!polychromatic,
njkahsfkjafa do not want,
timcampy,
musing,
thoughtful times,
nerves need to go away nao,
without the mask,
gonna die for this,
not quite himself,
curse day,
don't understand,
tl;dr,
filtered,
tyki,
unsettled and uncomfortable,
affected,
hypocrite,
road
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Hey. Wanna go get something with me? Hot chocolate? A cake? We can just go out and look for this Timcampy too. I've not seen, err, anything like that. But if I do, I'll tell you first.
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These kinds of friendships I've made here... I'm grateful. None of them greet me as 'the vessel' or 'the 14th' It's always just... Allen. Just Allen, like normal. The same as ever.
Heh, thank you, Setsuna.
I'd like to, but I may have to say today most likely isn't the best time I'm not good company like this, since we have some new arrivals from our world and I'd like to make sure they're settled first. Tomorrow though, maybe?
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But sure. Tomorrow's good. I'll look out for your little friend all the same.
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I appreciate it, thank you, Setsuna. Don't go out of your way or anything, but if you happen to see him let me know.
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I wouldn't go out of my way. Don't worry about that. But I'll probably go a few places, and when I do, I'll look.
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....As for the curse. That stuff you keep filtering? I don't know what it means, but this curse is letting people read it. It's killing privacy.
All the same, you're always going to be Allen to me. I like you, Allen. You're fun, but you've got a big heart, and you're easy to talk to.
I just thought, considering, I should let you know. I'll try to forget the stuff I read. Shouldn't be too hard.
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I... I'm sorry, for anything I said without knowing that may have been insulting. Really, I am.
Really, I suppose it doesn't make that much sense, but... thank you again, for the reassurance I mean. It's sort of unnerving, feeling like there's someone else in the back of your head somewhere. I don't want it to swallow me. I know everyone changes, I don't mind that, but I don't want to fully become someone else.
Hey, Setsuna? Can I ask for a favour?
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Hey, don't worry about it. None of it insulted me. I was more worried about you.
Well, that...14th stuff? Doesn't make much sense to me. I guess it's because I'm not from your world. However, I know what it feels like...to have someone else there. To worry about them taking over, to be in someone else's shadow and not feel like yourself. The first time Alexiel took over me, I hated her for it. I wanted her out. I wanted to just be. I didn't want to believe it. It was hard on me to deal with that for so long.
Of course you can. What's up?
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...what happened? How did you handle it all? Where did it all lead in the end?
Ah-- I guess... You only know me as Allen, right? That's all you've known of me. If I start to become anything different to that, if I start to change into something that doesn't seem like me anymore... will you tell me?
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