I Owe You This

[anti_romance]

I feel as though I owe you this. An update. A real update on everything I am, and have been since I started REALLY neglecting this thing.

I am Grace.
I will be 17 in fourteen days.
I spent from November 29 to December 24th in the hospital.
I dont really want to live
My life is so amazing
I am so blessed
I'm not happy
I wanted to kill myself
I'm back on medication
I'm way behind in school
I have a very sweet boyfriend
Who I enjoy spending time with
I love Evan, who isnt my boyfriend
He's crazy
I'm crazy
I'm sorry for complaining.
And I'm sorry I'm alive

I'm a hypocrite
and a bitch
and I wish I could change.