black hearts
It's hard to describe the way that I feel, especially to people that don't understand the way that my mind works and such. In brief: I think and see in pictures. I have a million stillframes and video clips running through my mind at any given moment. Sometimes, I hallucinate. Sometimes, I panic. Sometimes, I'm paranoid.. but those things are off topic. When i get frustrated, it's like I have this horrible static in my head that won't go away. It's "loud" and huge and terrible. I see it and feel it. It sucks. But I don't have the static right now. Instead, I feel horrible, but in a different way.
Have you seen a black widow's web? It is thick and chaotic and a little creepy. The widow hangs upside down in the web. I feel like a black widow. I almost feel like a black widow that doesn't have web-resistance capability. I feel trapped in my own horrible, sticky web.
I've been listening to shitty loud music and thinking shitty thoughts.
I need to get over this.
Soon.
Have you seen a black widow's web? It is thick and chaotic and a little creepy. The widow hangs upside down in the web. I feel like a black widow. I almost feel like a black widow that doesn't have web-resistance capability. I feel trapped in my own horrible, sticky web.
I've been listening to shitty loud music and thinking shitty thoughts.
I need to get over this.
Soon.