self esteem
Again and again I fall into the trap of thinking as a christian I can't allow myself to have self esteem. While a healthy self esteem is a great strength when fighting with devils. I am in a dangerous battle sometimes, and to have courage simply does require some self esteem. Maybe I must read that book of Theresa of Avila one day (or was it from John of the cross?), that book where it says we need to dig for our souls and see their value and beauty.