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so im sorry to the 2 of you who may read this that all i do in my lj is complain, but i see no other point of having one. and im sorry that what im about to say ive said before here but im seeing it again.
its just the same bullshit with my friends where i go weeks and weeks, and in some cases months, without seeing someone and i ask on a weekly basis if they want to chill but theyre busy or they dont know yet. and if ive gone so long without seeing someone who i consider my friend itd be nice if they at least made it look like they wanna see me. the only person who EVER calls me to chill is rob, and it may seem like im exaggerating but im not in the slightest. JUST ROB. it makes me feel like shit that i want to see these people so badly and they really dont give a fuck if they ever see me again, i feel like if i dissappeared nobody would give a fuck, people would act like they cared for a week or two so other people would see, but nobody would really care. its like theyre afraid to make plans ahead of time in case someone better wants to do something. im tired of calling people and having them say ive got plans even though when you asked yesterday i said i didnt but if those dont workout we can hangout, i feel like theres always someone everyone would rather be with than me, and im fucking sick of it
its just the same bullshit with my friends where i go weeks and weeks, and in some cases months, without seeing someone and i ask on a weekly basis if they want to chill but theyre busy or they dont know yet. and if ive gone so long without seeing someone who i consider my friend itd be nice if they at least made it look like they wanna see me. the only person who EVER calls me to chill is rob, and it may seem like im exaggerating but im not in the slightest. JUST ROB. it makes me feel like shit that i want to see these people so badly and they really dont give a fuck if they ever see me again, i feel like if i dissappeared nobody would give a fuck, people would act like they cared for a week or two so other people would see, but nobody would really care. its like theyre afraid to make plans ahead of time in case someone better wants to do something. im tired of calling people and having them say ive got plans even though when you asked yesterday i said i didnt but if those dont workout we can hangout, i feel like theres always someone everyone would rather be with than me, and im fucking sick of it