i hate my life so bad right now
im so pissed. i feel like crying. but ive dont enough of that in the past couple of days. this frustration is mainly caused by my emotions. i really like rd as u know i think ive said that..but i used to go out with him and i never really stopped liking him ugh i really really like him i like everything about him. he told katelynn that he still liked me but i doubt it. he said hed go back out with me too but it doesnt seem to look like we will. he was supose to be in my lunch today and we were going to talk but i was walking to lunch and i saw him sittin in his room because he was in the same hall as me and he wasnt going to lunch...and i started to worry and so i thought well maybe the teacher is being an Ahole and well i waited and waited and look and looked in lunch today but never saw him. i was so pissed i almost even started to cry. i swear on my life i am never going to get my hopes up on something ever again. everytime i do nothing happenes like its supose to or nothing happens at all. i hate it so much. but i did see him after school. me and jessi skipped b3 and all i knew was that he had class up behind parsons somewhere in gibbony and so we waited up there before the bell rang to see if i saw him and i did...he was with billy and well i waited with jessi infront of her bus and he just randomly said "YEH LIKE THAT GIRL RIGHT THERE" and pointed to me idk what he was talking about tryin to be funny i guess? he was laughing. and then he said hey to me and got on his bus. errrrr i wish i was just myself when we went out before...i wasnt myself around him because i was afraid if i was myself i would get on his nerves and he woulda broke up with me...well he broke up with me because i didnt talk enough, and believe me i can talk if i wanted to when i want to. but i dont feel like talkinga bout this shit anymore. all my news today was bad news.
bye
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