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Okay. So i keep running into all these sad stories right and left. Everyone's sad lately. I guess we could blame it on college. Maybe i'm the last one that hasn't let reality set in yet. I get why everyone's freaking out but half of us are going to just be moving up to Atlanta. All our families are back in Savannah so we'll be coming back randomly to visit them right? I mean, everyone says you should just give up. I can give up a lot of things. Seriously, letting go has basically just become another meaningless step to avoid getting hurt. I think giving up friends just because of college just seems so pointless. I don't think i've ever had this sort of thing go on before. I've got such a wonderful group of friends. Becca's the chick i can talk to about anything. She's been through everything i've been through and all i have to do is just sit down and talk a bit and suddenly i start realizing a lot more than i ever had before. Not to mention she's my lesbian lover. So is sam, who could kick my ass from here to next week but she still does everything she possibly can to make everyone happy, including giving up half her asian food to the lucky charm beggar. She's basically my reassurance in everything. If i've got a problem that i think no ones going to understand, i go to sam. I know half the time she's thinking, wtf is wrong with this chick, but she still makes me feel soooooo much better after every discussion. Hippo is just cool all around and even though she doesnt talk half as much as anyone else she still some how manages to make me laugh every time i see her. Not to mention she sat there that one night while i cried, went crazy, started breaking out bats, and cried some more and i guess her just being there helped more than anything. Kieran's been there since day one freshman year. I've dragged her to hell and back and she's had to put up with so much of my shit i'm suprised shes still breathing. I think she's passed the test by now, she's with me for like whether she likes it or not. Same for laura whose been here longer than ANYONE! My fellow hobbit that i love more than life itself and will continue loving even if she's just an organless mass of skin that waves her hand in the air and steals my plastic dinosaurs.
I think the point i'm getting at with all of this is that i'm expected to just give all that up because we're going of to different university's and thats ridiculous. I'll be in England within a year and i'm never going to stop talking to any of you guys! All of this stranger nonsense needs to stop! I've finally gotten to where i want to be and i'm not letting a change in address come in the way of it. I haven't been genuinely happy with every area in my life for a long time. When i say long, i mean ages! It always used to be one or two things, the family would be great but the relationship would suck. The relationship would be great and work would drive me crazy. I'd get a week off and something would explode at home. (air conditioner)
The recent relationship drama is over. I've had enough arguments to last me at least a few months and i'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling like a bitch. I'm sick of worrying about who's on whose side. And most importantly, i'm sick of feeling like i've done something wrong and that i've got to sort out some way to fix it. End of story.
The family has actually been getting along quite well. After all the fighting a few months ago things seem to have turned around completely and i'm so happy because of it. A month ago if someone had asked me if i thought mom and dad were going to be okay once i left i would have said no. I would have bet money that they'd of gotten a divorce and i'd get a call about how it wasnt my fault and all that crap. Ask me the same question today and i'm almost 95% sure everything's better between them. They dont get mad much any more and if they do its over within a few hours. I can actually stand to be in a room with them for more than 10 minutes now. This whole year that was a struggle in itself. They still ask pointless stuff and try to butt into my life but i think it's finally gotten to the point where we know we'll be apart and we're finally starting to get close. It's pretty nice.
I was worried about not getting a dorm and all that crap. Well i didnt get one. I got something better. A super nice apartment with a chick a lot like me in a gated community a mile from school. Went to the bank today and signed a bunch of bonds so now i know i'm not going to starve.
I've watched Donnie Darko at least 40 times since the beginning of July and i watched it again tonight and i've suddenly got a whole new appreciation for it. I went to tea with kelly and watched the tourists. I sang disney songs with sandee over the internet. I belted out songs from Cats about an hour ago. Just got done with Family Guy. And most importantly i've got the best birthday present in the history of all birthday presents coming to me in exactly 35 days.
I think at this point i could think about all the horrible things that have happened but at the end of the day all i can do is smile.
Love you all more than you'll ever know.
<3
I think the point i'm getting at with all of this is that i'm expected to just give all that up because we're going of to different university's and thats ridiculous. I'll be in England within a year and i'm never going to stop talking to any of you guys! All of this stranger nonsense needs to stop! I've finally gotten to where i want to be and i'm not letting a change in address come in the way of it. I haven't been genuinely happy with every area in my life for a long time. When i say long, i mean ages! It always used to be one or two things, the family would be great but the relationship would suck. The relationship would be great and work would drive me crazy. I'd get a week off and something would explode at home. (air conditioner)
The recent relationship drama is over. I've had enough arguments to last me at least a few months and i'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling like a bitch. I'm sick of worrying about who's on whose side. And most importantly, i'm sick of feeling like i've done something wrong and that i've got to sort out some way to fix it. End of story.
The family has actually been getting along quite well. After all the fighting a few months ago things seem to have turned around completely and i'm so happy because of it. A month ago if someone had asked me if i thought mom and dad were going to be okay once i left i would have said no. I would have bet money that they'd of gotten a divorce and i'd get a call about how it wasnt my fault and all that crap. Ask me the same question today and i'm almost 95% sure everything's better between them. They dont get mad much any more and if they do its over within a few hours. I can actually stand to be in a room with them for more than 10 minutes now. This whole year that was a struggle in itself. They still ask pointless stuff and try to butt into my life but i think it's finally gotten to the point where we know we'll be apart and we're finally starting to get close. It's pretty nice.
I was worried about not getting a dorm and all that crap. Well i didnt get one. I got something better. A super nice apartment with a chick a lot like me in a gated community a mile from school. Went to the bank today and signed a bunch of bonds so now i know i'm not going to starve.
I've watched Donnie Darko at least 40 times since the beginning of July and i watched it again tonight and i've suddenly got a whole new appreciation for it. I went to tea with kelly and watched the tourists. I sang disney songs with sandee over the internet. I belted out songs from Cats about an hour ago. Just got done with Family Guy. And most importantly i've got the best birthday present in the history of all birthday presents coming to me in exactly 35 days.
I think at this point i could think about all the horrible things that have happened but at the end of the day all i can do is smile.
Love you all more than you'll ever know.
<3