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Waiting for things to kick off... which wont be happening for another couple of hours.... SO! A longer more detailed version of the myspace blog for your reading pleasure...
~I swear to God kid, I love you. I really don't think you know exactly how much I've missed you since I last saw you. Luckily you'll be visiting soon, even if it's only for a day. You never fail to make my day brighter. The day we lose touch will be one awful day. You're completely unforgetable. I'll miss you kiddo.
~I honestly don't know what the hell's going on with you. I've tried talking to you. I've done everything I can but it seems to have gotten me no where. 4 years and this? After everything!? Yeah we've had our ups and downs but its next to impossible to get on with out you. You sold me out for a GUY! We've had our problems in the past with the whole boyfriend thing, but it's never been this bad. You've probably hurt me more than anyone else has through this whole ordeal. I though if I could count on anyone it'd be you but I was terribly mistaken. After everything... I'm still here if you ever need me, still miss you with all my heart, yet the feeling is obviously not mutual.
~You've got a whole year on the last one but it's basically the same deal. You've been my best friend longer than anyone. We've conquered moving to different cities, different states, different schools. We've done it all. We've gone through 2 awful long relationships. First kisses, first boyfriends, first break ups, first dances, first parties, highschool starting, highschool ending, second boyfriends, first jobs, driver's licenses, cars, college applications, college acceptances, a cruise, 5 summers, 5 christmases, my first pair of converse, twirling on football fields in prom dresses, my first old woman skirt, our first encounter with a werewolf, one hell of a birthday party, disney, mexico, bahamas.... need I list more? So we moved? We've done it before. So another relationship ended? They've ended before. I can't but feel like you've given up, and that's not you. Not by far. I haven't given up yet, darling hobbit. Don't lose hope.
~I've also known you 4 years. It hasnt been till this last one, maybe the end of junior year that we've actually been close. You're the sweetest thing but even you've managed to make me cry once. Luckily thats all in the past and now you're the only one I can think of that, no matter what, will always be there for me willing to help me. And i appreciate it more than you'll ever know. Well, maybe one day, when we form our blue and green society. Catch you at tea, my love.
~You're new, but you're always there when I feel like talking. And vice versa. Trust me, you mean as much as a "4-year-friend" any day.
~You scared the ever loving hell out of me when I first met you. Like I mean everything about you. The seoncd we started talking and hanging out I realized exactly how cool you really are. I'll miss you but I'll be seeing you.
~We've only just met. Some of your friends creep me out, A LOT... but I can tell this is the start of a beautiful relationship. Party on, child.
~I haven't seen you in a whole year however that year we were together was one of the best one's of my life. Just meeting you has changed me for the better in more ways than one. I wish we could've done more before we left for college, but none the less I'll never forget you and everything we've been through.
~You're a cool kid, but dont expect any repeats. :-\
~You're my first "savannah best friend" of all time. Honestly, over 9 years i've gone from loving you to hating you to despising you to tolerating you back to loving you again. In the end, i'm glad i've known you. I still think you're completely fake half the time, but i guess i've accepted it. If you're ever in a jam your fashion sense will see you through it. You're going places, chick. You better stay in touch.
~You have a lisp and I think you may be gay. We've only just met and everything, I'm pretty sure you're going to become a good friend... however metro you may be.
~Without you I would have gone completely crazy by now and thats a fact. You've done more for me than I could have ever asked for. You're on my mind just about 24-7. You've worked your way up to the top of my list so fast it makes my head spin. Your opinion is one of the few that matters. There's so much I want to tell you and so much I want to know but I'm not sure if it'll ever come out. I don't think I would ever be willing to give so much up for one little chance but you've obviously proved me wrong. My entire life everything's just been sort of handed to me, I've never truely had to work for anything, but I'm actually trying which is one hell of an experience. Whether the outcome of this is good or bad, in the end, I'll be glad it happened reguardless. Hence why you scare the hell out of me.
~I don't care how much you argue, you're my baby and you get no cigarettes! :( I miss our arguements and you're adorable little catch phrase. All you had to do to make me laugh was get excited over something and turn all red in the face, clap your hands, and exclaim "Hurray!" God, you need to film that for me.
~You're one of the first people I could ever trust. No matter what I know anything said between you and I stays that way. I don't have to watch what I say or do. You're a sarcastic bastard and I love you for it. I'm so glad you're having fun. I miss you, kid. You have no earthly idea.
~Et tu, Brute?
~I don't have the nerve to talk to you first. In the end, it's all up to you. You're so close, yet so freaking far. Out of everyone I've lost, you stand out the most. You'll never begin to understand exactly what your influence has done for me. A simple hello... and everything's ancient history.
~I found it hard to believe you of all people would just give up and leave. I meant what I said, you could beat me up and scream and yell and do so many horrible things but I doubt i could ever truely be mad at you. It's impossibly, and I don't no why.
~Despite what you think, I do care. I care a lot. Just not the way you want me to. I'm sorry for lying about certain things but in the beginning, there really was nothing going on. You'll never accept it either. After everything that's happened I can't bring myself to even call you friend. You think I've hurt you? You're not the only one hurting believe me. I've survived... you will too. You'll go far in life, there's no doubting that. One day you'll wake up and everything is going to be just the way you've always wanted it to be, but I'm not going to be a part of it, and I'm really sorry.
~Little one, you're crazy and close. I'll be seeing you very soon hopefully. I can't live with out my 4'11 pimp/square dancing partner. Mmm.... yessss, I love me some midget.
~You might as well stop trying.
~You're insane.
~I already know that you and I are going to be very good friends. It's inevitable. :-D
~Freak.
~Keep pushing... see what happens. You're treading dangerous territory...
~You're such a bitch it's not even funny.
~Why?
~I swear to God kid, I love you. I really don't think you know exactly how much I've missed you since I last saw you. Luckily you'll be visiting soon, even if it's only for a day. You never fail to make my day brighter. The day we lose touch will be one awful day. You're completely unforgetable. I'll miss you kiddo.
~I honestly don't know what the hell's going on with you. I've tried talking to you. I've done everything I can but it seems to have gotten me no where. 4 years and this? After everything!? Yeah we've had our ups and downs but its next to impossible to get on with out you. You sold me out for a GUY! We've had our problems in the past with the whole boyfriend thing, but it's never been this bad. You've probably hurt me more than anyone else has through this whole ordeal. I though if I could count on anyone it'd be you but I was terribly mistaken. After everything... I'm still here if you ever need me, still miss you with all my heart, yet the feeling is obviously not mutual.
~You've got a whole year on the last one but it's basically the same deal. You've been my best friend longer than anyone. We've conquered moving to different cities, different states, different schools. We've done it all. We've gone through 2 awful long relationships. First kisses, first boyfriends, first break ups, first dances, first parties, highschool starting, highschool ending, second boyfriends, first jobs, driver's licenses, cars, college applications, college acceptances, a cruise, 5 summers, 5 christmases, my first pair of converse, twirling on football fields in prom dresses, my first old woman skirt, our first encounter with a werewolf, one hell of a birthday party, disney, mexico, bahamas.... need I list more? So we moved? We've done it before. So another relationship ended? They've ended before. I can't but feel like you've given up, and that's not you. Not by far. I haven't given up yet, darling hobbit. Don't lose hope.
~I've also known you 4 years. It hasnt been till this last one, maybe the end of junior year that we've actually been close. You're the sweetest thing but even you've managed to make me cry once. Luckily thats all in the past and now you're the only one I can think of that, no matter what, will always be there for me willing to help me. And i appreciate it more than you'll ever know. Well, maybe one day, when we form our blue and green society. Catch you at tea, my love.
~You're new, but you're always there when I feel like talking. And vice versa. Trust me, you mean as much as a "4-year-friend" any day.
~You scared the ever loving hell out of me when I first met you. Like I mean everything about you. The seoncd we started talking and hanging out I realized exactly how cool you really are. I'll miss you but I'll be seeing you.
~We've only just met. Some of your friends creep me out, A LOT... but I can tell this is the start of a beautiful relationship. Party on, child.
~I haven't seen you in a whole year however that year we were together was one of the best one's of my life. Just meeting you has changed me for the better in more ways than one. I wish we could've done more before we left for college, but none the less I'll never forget you and everything we've been through.
~You're a cool kid, but dont expect any repeats. :-\
~You're my first "savannah best friend" of all time. Honestly, over 9 years i've gone from loving you to hating you to despising you to tolerating you back to loving you again. In the end, i'm glad i've known you. I still think you're completely fake half the time, but i guess i've accepted it. If you're ever in a jam your fashion sense will see you through it. You're going places, chick. You better stay in touch.
~You have a lisp and I think you may be gay. We've only just met and everything, I'm pretty sure you're going to become a good friend... however metro you may be.
~Without you I would have gone completely crazy by now and thats a fact. You've done more for me than I could have ever asked for. You're on my mind just about 24-7. You've worked your way up to the top of my list so fast it makes my head spin. Your opinion is one of the few that matters. There's so much I want to tell you and so much I want to know but I'm not sure if it'll ever come out. I don't think I would ever be willing to give so much up for one little chance but you've obviously proved me wrong. My entire life everything's just been sort of handed to me, I've never truely had to work for anything, but I'm actually trying which is one hell of an experience. Whether the outcome of this is good or bad, in the end, I'll be glad it happened reguardless. Hence why you scare the hell out of me.
~I don't care how much you argue, you're my baby and you get no cigarettes! :( I miss our arguements and you're adorable little catch phrase. All you had to do to make me laugh was get excited over something and turn all red in the face, clap your hands, and exclaim "Hurray!" God, you need to film that for me.
~You're one of the first people I could ever trust. No matter what I know anything said between you and I stays that way. I don't have to watch what I say or do. You're a sarcastic bastard and I love you for it. I'm so glad you're having fun. I miss you, kid. You have no earthly idea.
~Et tu, Brute?
~I don't have the nerve to talk to you first. In the end, it's all up to you. You're so close, yet so freaking far. Out of everyone I've lost, you stand out the most. You'll never begin to understand exactly what your influence has done for me. A simple hello... and everything's ancient history.
~I found it hard to believe you of all people would just give up and leave. I meant what I said, you could beat me up and scream and yell and do so many horrible things but I doubt i could ever truely be mad at you. It's impossibly, and I don't no why.
~Despite what you think, I do care. I care a lot. Just not the way you want me to. I'm sorry for lying about certain things but in the beginning, there really was nothing going on. You'll never accept it either. After everything that's happened I can't bring myself to even call you friend. You think I've hurt you? You're not the only one hurting believe me. I've survived... you will too. You'll go far in life, there's no doubting that. One day you'll wake up and everything is going to be just the way you've always wanted it to be, but I'm not going to be a part of it, and I'm really sorry.
~Little one, you're crazy and close. I'll be seeing you very soon hopefully. I can't live with out my 4'11 pimp/square dancing partner. Mmm.... yessss, I love me some midget.
~You might as well stop trying.
~You're insane.
~I already know that you and I are going to be very good friends. It's inevitable. :-D
~Freak.
~Keep pushing... see what happens. You're treading dangerous territory...
~You're such a bitch it's not even funny.
~Why?