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HAHA...yay...i dont know.Hmm,things are rather goo-shitty as of late.i have pretty much lost everyone.my fault obviously,cause that is life,noone elses fault 'cept mine own...i dunno,for those of you who actually read this,which i know is not many,i am sorry for all the past transgresions that i have done unto you.
you simply must understand,for some of you that is(ie..,jon and michelle...),i just randomly stop calling people for long periods of time.dont ask me why because i do enjoy being around you and all that jazz,just sometimes i figure that you get sick of me and such,because that is quite easy to do,so i am told,well told by my own mind that is.there have been times in which i have wanted to call people and then i just figure "hey...they will most likely have something better to do than to see me..."
then there are some of you that i care for more than friends...honestly i dont know what to say here so ima do a lil dance...::stands up...waves arms in the air,starts moving hips around...while yelling,WEO-WOP-WOP-WOP-WOP-TURKIES!".i dunno,im a fucked up kid,i take everything entirely to seriously,what was some fun in the begining,turned into me having tons of affection for you(yet again,my fault),more than you will ever know,and more than you ever wanted in the first place.oh well.ill deal,and will get over it.as that dumb but oh so true quote goes,"time heals all",no matter how much i dont want it to....yay.im making a fool outta myself.
anyway,yes,that feels better to get rid of...i have been harboring upon these things for sometime now...thinking and examining every little detail over and over in my head...its starting to drive me insane!!lol...but yes,back onto track,i have a new job now...working to move to seattle,though i may end up scratching that idea for a few years or so...save up,get all of my shit in order...or just save up to go to europe...one of those will work...later all.