Feb 09, 2004 17:06
i met a friend i havnt seen for long time. Brian was infront of the vons being one of those strikers. he used to work there and now.....well he still works in the same place but outside now, haha. well we had a long talk with Tim(who was also there for the strike & he's one of my friend from school). And we were talking about Heather and Brian told me something i never knew before. What he told me about Heather was something that may be the thing i needed to hear in order to forget about her. i remember what she said to me couple weeks ago when she told me she's having problems with her life and how she needed help. so ofcourse, me, who's in love with her, decided to be nice infront of her all the time so i can help her when she needs some1. well one night she asked me to take her friends home because she had to go visit Brandon(manager at her work) 1 in the morning because he is sad or something. so being nice to her, i said sure and decided to take her friends home later. i just found out Heather was lying to me about that night. that pisses me off in many ways. first, ofcourse the lying part. i fuckin hate it when people lie. and secondly, she wanted help so i helped but instead of letting me help her, she decided to USE me so she can go and have fun. THAT PISSES ME OFFFFFFFFFFF!!!
well then i thought about it and i think this might be a good thing because right now i feel disgusted with her which means i can finally forget about her and move on. all those time i spent with her, i've always thought she loved me. but now i think about it, she never did. now i believe she and i went out not because she loved me or trusted me, but that i was just there at the right time.