Anyone have some glue?
I wouldn't have said anything but I got to see tonight how you can lose things that you really want if you don't speak up. So I decided to tell Dustin that I like him before it was too late, and it went about as I expected. Basically the conversation boiled down to "I like you too but I just can't do it right now. Maybe later. Sorry." Bastard.
I don't understand, what exactly is it that I'm supposed to do? Shrug off the second rejection, smile and be his friend and keep right on visiting and waiting for the "maybe later"? Not wait? Just commit to being alone? Stop talking to him for a few years and hope he pops up in the future again? I've just never met anyone else who I felt actually complimented my personality and made me feel like being a better person just by example. I've never been in a relationship with anyone that actually respected my thoughts and feelings enough to want me to share them. Maybe I wasn't being fair to hope for it to be different from what is was, but is it also fair to imply for that someone should wait for something that may or may not happen at some point in the future? I don't understand...if a person believes in fate so much, and fate gives you a second chance at something, why on earth would you say "Nah, it's still too hard right now. Hit me back when it's easier!"??? I just don't believe that life's that easy!
I would talk to my sister about it but she'd just tell me to find someone else. I don't want to find someone else. If there were anyone around me that was good enough, I'd know already and I wouldn't have embarassed myself like this.
Bleah
I don't understand, what exactly is it that I'm supposed to do? Shrug off the second rejection, smile and be his friend and keep right on visiting and waiting for the "maybe later"? Not wait? Just commit to being alone? Stop talking to him for a few years and hope he pops up in the future again? I've just never met anyone else who I felt actually complimented my personality and made me feel like being a better person just by example. I've never been in a relationship with anyone that actually respected my thoughts and feelings enough to want me to share them. Maybe I wasn't being fair to hope for it to be different from what is was, but is it also fair to imply for that someone should wait for something that may or may not happen at some point in the future? I don't understand...if a person believes in fate so much, and fate gives you a second chance at something, why on earth would you say "Nah, it's still too hard right now. Hit me back when it's easier!"??? I just don't believe that life's that easy!
I would talk to my sister about it but she'd just tell me to find someone else. I don't want to find someone else. If there were anyone around me that was good enough, I'd know already and I wouldn't have embarassed myself like this.
Bleah