fear
i hate that the internet makes me feel so close to people because then i want to touch them and i cant. i am beyond articulation this morning. i am going to draw my feelings. i realized that my art has become a product of my fear, not a representation of, which it MUST be. i also realized that i love the FUCKING AM and the TRANS CHAMPS and i want to play it for you if you will let me. Austin said something to me he said, "be afraid in every other facet of your life, but not this one. you have to let it all go. you will know you are there when you feel it" i feel it.beginning to feel it.