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[anthraxmax]

sometimes i feel overbearing. sometimes i wonder if the connections that i imagine that i have with people are reciprocated and are therefore real. i wonder if anything i think is true is true. i wonder if the feelings that i have felt were valid. i always wonder if the things that i think i am are projected in the ways that i imagine. i think a lot of the time the things i thought i was are not the things that i was actually. i am not infallable. i miss not missing. loneliness is so comforting to me because so much of my memory is consumed by memories of that feeling exactly.

max.