Almost a second week through...
I suppose I can't say that things have gotten any worse.
The whole little High School routein thing is starting to sink in.. and while I'd still rather not go to high school at all it's still better than I know going to a public high school would be... but that isn't really for any reason other than i knew no one at the place i would have gone too, and I feel really unconfortable in an enviroment where everything is new to me.. not only all the people but also the school in general. Cause we've been down to JP2 many times before, from hanging up 400 crosses in their hallways to going to open house (more than once) to going there with our school at the beginning of 8th grade all the way up to the new student orientation and all students day. On top of that I don't have to worry about riots breaking out or being shot. Again, the comfortable environment factor comes in to play...
But beyond that, the only thing I'm really worried about is Latin class.. I probably got myself into too much, or maybe its just because I lack the motivation to study like I should.
And then beyond academics.. the subject of people comes up.
All I have to say on that subject is this: there are too many. Too many people overall, and too many that I should know and don't. I feel bad sometimes when someone walks up to me, I know they're in P.E. or a few classes with me or whatever, and they get my attention with my name but I just have to say "hey" or something cause I don't know who they are...
But I really can't say what my overall mood is at the moment, and the reason for that has to do with the subject of my previous paragraph.
Because one moment I feel really good, like I'm on the top of the world or something, and then come next day someone will say something or I'll see something and it just leaves me feeling horrible for sometimes several days.. and then something else good happens and all of the past events just are wiped out of my memory and I start back at stage one.
Yesterday, for example... one of the best moments of my life.
But then today rolled around.. I saw something familiar, though out of place. I had to wonder.
And then there is something else I know I shouldn't be worrying about as much as I do.. and that's losing my friends. This isn't really as much about all those "loose" friends that I had at St. Joseph, because it was hard to not know everyone when your entire class was made up of 40 people that you saw nearly every moment of every day. I was thinking more about the really close friends I have. Again, I know I shouldn't be worrying about it, just because my social skills are terrible and I have a hard time making new friends, that doesn't mean other people can't do it...
Just my view on things, forgive me if I offended you...
-Anthony