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Oh my dear god I hate teenagers. Remember the "easy" camp I was supposed to go to? Well it turned out to be a little harder than I expected. I just spent 8 days, 18 hrs a day with 20 13 and 14 yr olds. I was the platoon sgt. I had to teach these kids how to march and do basic soldiering skills. They're all bastards and I hope they all turn out to be crack attics giving head for quarters. I finally taught them most of what they needed to know by thursday and I'm exauseted. In the past two nights I've had 4 hrs of sleep. in the past week I've had a little under 20 hrs. To be honest though they did make me proud in the final demo (though I didn't tell them that). It was a good experience, something I'm glad I did for more reasons than just the kids. Saying that something odd happened to me this week. For the first time I met a female that I completely hit it off with and had some the best conversations in my life. On top of that she's utterly beautiful and funny. We completely bonded within the first few minutes of knowing each other. I feel like I have known this girl my whole life. Now the odd part. I can't be with her. This female who seemed completely perfect turns out to be a well developed 16 yr old. How do you deal with that? I wouldn't allow myself to even consider it a real possibility. The funny thing also being that until way after when we started being attacted to more than just each others personalities did I find this out. How? I kissed her and soon after realized she was kissing nervously and she wasn't that experienced. It hit me that out of all the hours of talking we had done I had never bothered to ask for the age (considering how she looked). I proceeded to ask the age and bam that was blown to hell. I guess fate works in it's own way. I do wish that things could be different but I suppose this is just the way things are. She of course argued with me claiming that age has nothing to do with it. I would just feel wrong in being with her. I can't explain it but I just know that I would. Also considering that I have a child (which I get to spend some time with this week for a day:) ) It just doesn't feel right. I do plan on keeping in contact with her though. I'm really into her and maybe a fews years down the road we might meet up again. Damn it I hate it when I feel confused. I wish there was an easy answer but I guess there never are so I'll just suck it up and drive on. Well I'm going to get some sleep.
oh yea if watch the movie dodgeball anytime while it's out wait till the credit s are over for the best part of the movie.
oh yea if watch the movie dodgeball anytime while it's out wait till the credit s are over for the best part of the movie.