May 21, 2008 22:23
Do you ever just get sick of feeling used?
Do you ever sometimes feel like the only reason why people come to you is that they want something. You provided a means to an end, an answer, a distraction, amusement, or some other bullshit. Aside from that they have no real use for you.
Despite my want or my need to be around people, I also have the desire to just disconnect sometimes. To pull the plug on everything, shut it all down, turn it off, and just stop. Stop calling, stop talking, stop everything and become dead and silent. No noise, nothing. Just static.
When you're quiet and not making any noise, you start to notice all the noise around you. When you just stop and watch everyone and everything else, you're better able to observe everyone else around you.
So yeah I'm turned off, and disconnected. Maybe its because I'm just tired of people right now. Maybe its because I just don't want to put out or deal anymore.
But I'm always watching and observing.
Taking notes
And maybe when and if I feel like it, I'll pop back in again.
-Kane