To Take This Handgun To My Eyes And Watch My Cells Start To Rise

[anthemofxistnce]

so many emotions are running around in my head. i don.t know what to do anymore. im sad that schools out for the summer but im also happy. im going to miss shop alot. i miss it even more because it will never be the same. i wish we had like 2 more weeks of shop and then school was out. i.m going to miss everyone so much. mostly ashley, kristin, jen and him (shop people). i.m going to see ashley and kristin over the summer. i don.t care if i have to walk to athol im going to see them. hopefully i.ll see jen at some point. i know i.m never going to see him. sometimes i wish i could hate him. i don.t have a reason to. it wouldn.t be fair. i want to think that there could be something but i know there won.t be. i hate thinking like this too. i.m so sick of being negative all the time. there.s nothing postive to think about for me though.

-good-
.warped tour.
.locobazooka.
.party on my birthday.
.getting cellphone.

-bad-
.being home with my mom.
.not doing anything.
.summer reading.
.not seeing him.

thats what my summer is. nothing more.

shop was good on friday. except for when i kept thinking that it was over.

.:yummy:.
:lollipops:
:mt dew:
:twister:
:bop it:
:brownies:
:skittles:
:taking pictures:
:music:
:kristin dancing:
:sliding down railings:
:playing spit 8-0 (me:8 nate:0):

.:yucky:.
:pizza:
:chelsea playing twister:
:cory being as ass:
:pictures of me:
:being an ass to him:
:shayna.s shirt: