thinking too much
Its been a strange week for me. Someone that I work with in Milwaukee passed away this weekend. He had suffered a stroke or heart attack while driving and then was involved in an accident. We don't really know what caused his death but its definately struck a nerve with me. First off this guy, while I have not known him long, is truly one of the nice guys. He was very kind, and complementary towards me and the work that I did. I may have joked that "I had to go deal with him" but it wasn't having to deal with him. Running his show and broadcasts were fun for me because he really had a passion for what he did and it would bleed over to those around him. He was relatively young, at 41 and apparently having a young child, he was too young to go. This has especially hit home with me because as many of you probably already know I was in a car accident not too long ago. In this accident I fell asleep at the wheel and was lucky not to get seriously hurt when I drove off the road. These two events have gotten me thinking a lot lately. First off I wonder if I have ever touched someone the way that he has touched me. If my presence can have that great an impact on someone I barely know. It's also made me wonder if I am capable of being that impressionable. The two incidents have also gotten me thinking about what I want to accomplish in life. I know what I want in my career now, but life in general. Before I go I want to find someone special, get married and see my kids grow up. I want to live life with a passion and not care what others think of how I do it. I don't want to keep weighing in on it which is why I've had to write it down. Please excuse my rambling because its just my way of dealing with it.