Feb 03, 2003 23:41
Its tired, and I'm late.
I thought I'd be eager to get to bed after a day like today....
The test? I came up negative. I had it all shifted and worked out according to my way and then that.
Wouldn't have believed I'd be up late enough to write after that.
Getting up so early to miss so miserably.
He's sweet. Pats me on the head while rubbing my hand. "Plenty people miss the first time. Now you know what your up against."
Big smiles.....
I think I wanna start writing in this thing.
I'm aggravated. I'm annoyed. I'm happy. I'm exhausted.
I really gotta get another job, one with some more management and control. This being led thing has me venting in every direction. Every wrong direction.
I hate exploding like this. I feel like I'm changing shape with every movement. And that i have no control in whatever shape I come to.
I'm rambling.
I'm late and its getting too exhausted.