GRAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHHH
Hatshepsut died.
I--she had a good long life: like 13 years.
But goddammit.
I---I had to take her lifeless body and she bled and oh god
I know she was a reptilian moron
she couldn't feel joy or affection or love
she just felt "warm" and "food" from my presence, and from her I felt "companionship" and "fun."
That's it.
Just a business relationship
And I want it back
I'm crying because I loved her
she was my friend.
Even if our relationship was mercenary and meaningless, I loved that about her.
The simplicity of it was beautiful.
It was pure, not like relationships with other humans who are complex and hard to define.
She was simple.
She was pure.
I loved her.
I miss her already.
Just her little slithering rustling as I walked past her.
The thrashing way she swam.
I watched her go from the size of a motherfucking pencil to over 4 feet and GODDAMMIT I HATE THIS
I HATE MY EMOTIONS
I HATE WATCHING PETS DIE
I HATE OUTLIVING THINGS I LOVE
I HATE THE NEED TO CARE FOR OTHERS
Someone just find me a way to live without caring for others
because this hurts to goddamn much
GODDAMMIT I MISS YOU
From when I worried about you not eating and took you to the vet and you bit me because I was a moron
to laughing like a moron watching you swim adroitly as fuck
and even just a week or so ago having you crawl over my head
watching you drink and goddamn watching snakes drink is adorable as fuck.
i miss you so much already
i love you, hatshepsut.
I--she had a good long life: like 13 years.
But goddammit.
I---I had to take her lifeless body and she bled and oh god
I know she was a reptilian moron
she couldn't feel joy or affection or love
she just felt "warm" and "food" from my presence, and from her I felt "companionship" and "fun."
That's it.
Just a business relationship
And I want it back
I'm crying because I loved her
she was my friend.
Even if our relationship was mercenary and meaningless, I loved that about her.
The simplicity of it was beautiful.
It was pure, not like relationships with other humans who are complex and hard to define.
She was simple.
She was pure.
I loved her.
I miss her already.
Just her little slithering rustling as I walked past her.
The thrashing way she swam.
I watched her go from the size of a motherfucking pencil to over 4 feet and GODDAMMIT I HATE THIS
I HATE MY EMOTIONS
I HATE WATCHING PETS DIE
I HATE OUTLIVING THINGS I LOVE
I HATE THE NEED TO CARE FOR OTHERS
Someone just find me a way to live without caring for others
because this hurts to goddamn much
GODDAMMIT I MISS YOU
From when I worried about you not eating and took you to the vet and you bit me because I was a moron
to laughing like a moron watching you swim adroitly as fuck
and even just a week or so ago having you crawl over my head
watching you drink and goddamn watching snakes drink is adorable as fuck.
i miss you so much already
i love you, hatshepsut.