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I ran out of canvas and boards, so I'm trying to finish up Capulet and Montague (my first large piece), but...I want something that needs blood. I have an urge for an artwork that requires blood and pain and despair, but I don't have the necessary medium for it. And, well, bleeding and hitting things when it's not part of a work of art is just plain crazy. And I can't have that. OK, I can, but I have these impulses of self-harm and exaltation of pain, and I can only feel right when I let them out in socially acceptable ways. Yes, I would like to cut myself occasionally, but I will not unless it serves a higher purpose, because I'm adamant in keeping myself at least semi-sane.
But damn, I could do some awesome shit with blood right now. Oh well, it can wait, and if it can't, then my frustration at the loss of inspiration will come into its own and become a new inspiration.
or something.
But damn, I could do some awesome shit with blood right now. Oh well, it can wait, and if it can't, then my frustration at the loss of inspiration will come into its own and become a new inspiration.
or something.