Letters

[ant_carraway]

Remus

I know I should explain my solemn behavoir, and so thought I should try writing it down and sending it. At the moment, I can't bare to face you, i would want to rip you apart, i wouldn't be able to control myself if I saw you. After what you did to Sabrina.

I admired you and how you treated her, and this is how you repay her?

She told me you

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[sabby_holloway]

Sabrina read over the letter carefully in the safety of her dormroom. She felt horrible and was seriously contemplating not replying at all. What would she say to him?

Anthony,

It's very awkward, We can talk, I guess. I can assure you though, I am fine. When did you want to meet? How am I going to face you?

-S. Holloway

[ant_carraway]

-Sabrina

I don't mind, somewhere we can talk alone?

Anthony

[sabby_holloway]

Anthony,

Come up to the Ravenclaw tower. I'll be by the large window on the west side.

-S. Holloway

[ant_carraway]

Anthony did as she instructed, as he arrived, she wasn't there and he began pacing, arranging his thoughts. He had no idea what he was going to say, but knew he had to say something.

[sabby_holloway]

Sabrina had already been in fact at the entrance, however she kept herself from view in the shadow of one of the overly large tapestries that hung in the hall. She watched the boy for several moments. She could just stay here behind the tapestry and not show, she really didn't want to talk to him. She didn't know what would be said or what would happen.

After the prolonged silence she kenw she couldn't just not show up. Quietly exiting a seperate way she made it appear as if she had come down a seperate hall. Making her way towards the boy she said nothing.

[ant_carraway]

On seeing her arrive his heart raced again, "hey..." he said softly, telling himself not to say something stupid. "How...how are you?"

[sabby_holloway]

Sabrina crossed her arms over her chest.

"Fine," she spoke softly, Awkward she thought but she didn't say anything else.

[ant_carraway]

Anthony nodded sadly, then looked to her, "I...What happened...I..." he looked down, "I don't regret it...but...oh I don't even know how to say it!"

He ran a hand through his hair unable to look at her, "I never felt so alive when i was with you...but..." he looked up this time. "You never wanted to sleep with me did you? I forced you into it...didn't I..."

He was unable to carry on, needing to know her answer.

[sabby_holloway]

Sabrina looked at the boy oddly. He seemed to have the whole situation backwards. She had forced him; well maybe not forced but taken advantage of at the least. How was she supposed to own up to such a horrid deed?

"You didn't force me," she began before pausing again. Did she really want to sleep with him in the first place though? She had wanted an escape, and it was just that, but did she want this with Anthony? She didn't know.

[solo_chan]

Anthony looked at her, trying to read what she was thinking. He looked down again, unable to help it, he couldn't take how she was looking at him, as though he was a lunatic.

"Ofcourse I did...I couldn't stop myself...I should of..."

[sabby_holloway]

I shouldn't have come. I knew I shouldn't have come. She scolded herself. The boy seemed to be breaking and she didn't know what to say or do. Pride kept her from taking all the blame. Pride and fear; she didn't want a reputation as Noreens.

"It wasn't your fault," she said softly, "It was mine."

[sabby_holloway]

Sabrina's words made him look up, "you were the one upset! you! not me, I was trying to help you...I screwed up." He looked at her, trying to compose himself, but his head kept falling and his eyes were welling up.

"I've screwed everything up...what happened, i wanted, but i never wanted it to happen the way it did..." he looked up, "I...I don't know what to do...I..." he struggled to breathe properly, "Oh merlin, I don't have a clue how to help you anymore...

...maybe it's because I'm too weak to help anyone...even if I love them..." he said his voice trailing off so the last sentence was low and almost unbelievable to hear.

"Noreen was right, I will never be loved by anyone..." he added in his head. He looked to her then turned to walk away, away from her, away from what he had always wanted, and his heart was breaking as he did so.

[sabby_holloway]

Sabrina starred after the Hufflepuff. She couldn't believe what he had said, but she didn't know what to say in return. She couldn't just call out that she loved him, she didn't know. She was only fifteen. It had all been one horrid mistake and now she was trapt by cellophane walls.

Stop! she screamed out in her mind, but her lips would not form the words. So instead the Ravenclaw watched the young boy walk away, helpless to alter the sitatuation.