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Everyone has said this a thousand times over, but I really have to stop drinking. Last night cemented for me what the previous week's antics started to bring home. Ant + alcohol = jerk. Sure, I can be funny at times but annoying also. It's a sobering thing when people you respect and trust as your best friends shun you, talk condescendingly to you and call you a jerk. I said lots of stuff I don't remember. I did lots of stuff I don't remember. It's not really as bad as it sounds....I wasn't walking around being spit on and the like. But two people that I value were extremely unimpressed with me and that hurts. They know who they are and I am sure by now they've probably forgotten about it. Maybe not.