To Parents!

Jun 23, 2005 14:42

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paperflowers June 23 2005, 22:02:58 UTC
erin:
yes stepmother dearest
I love my dad
enough to know that he doesn't want me around
neither do you
so once a year when its a birthday or twice when its a holiday
don't call and leave me a message saying to call
when you don't want me to call any other times
yes i live around the corner
you know where i live too
and that doesn't matter
so I'm going back to bed
and don't bother on my birthday
cause I already gave up
and don't tell me i think life is beautiful.
I don't anymore.
I hate it actually and don't want it anymore

stepmother
I like this person, "unjustified" because she can see that I am trying to hold your dad and you together...she doesn't know me, but, somewhere deep in her/his soul she can see the TRUTH. The value of life is the relationship you have with those who brought you in the world...I know that I am second hand, and I am proud of who I am. I stand with value and virtue, and all the discriminatory crap you write about me, means very little in my world. My world is much bigger and I intend to keep it that way....Erin, everyday I deal with death, and you know that....how may times have you preformed CPR and the pt survived...this is important for the person who has not yet said, GOOD BYE and I LOVE YOU.......I do not believe you had that opportunity and that is why you are soooooooo self descrutive.....I firmly do not believe that you have grieved properly, if I am wro..............000to go FUCK MYSELF!!!!
I believe we all grieve differently.....but you have to be TRUTHFUL, and not hide behind the fears of what others may think...For crying out loud Erin, I am 48 yrs and diffently live thru the crap and will continue to the small things, because its the small things that
that make a difference, it's getting up and the doing the little things, the things that make us feel beautitful inside, without anyone else knowing, that is what makes me get up everyday. I know you know this, but must learn to believe in it....and face the responsibilities that are just there...because that is just the way it is....so on what I thought was just a little note, know that you have always been love,
perception can be real or for those you think you are impressing, and that we have always loved you...that never changes...after all, you are our daughter, whether you wish to accept it or not.....
Love, me

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paperflowers June 23 2005, 22:03:12 UTC
Anna
Hello, nice to meet u, this is erin's family, my name... well my name doesn't matter.

U know what makes a family?

Someone who will spend their last little bit of money to buy erin and i food. someone who comes over to our house or calls to just say,"hey girls i'm thinking of u and just want to make sure ur ok."

Someone who acts like a monkey infront of erin's pig. Someone who comes to our house and cries with us because she has little money and wants to help us to the end. Someone who opens her home up and tells us if we were to get evicted we could live with her. Someone who just wrote us a $900 check just so we wouldn't loose out apartment. Someone who protects us from everything she can. Someone who's going to spend $300 to turn back on our PG & E and doesn't want any money back in return. Someone who looks at erin and says, " ur my big sister, and i can't go through this world without u, and i love u and am so blessed to have u in my life."

My mom is an amazing women. And she doesn't have a lot of money, but she looks at erin as her daughter, and buys us food with her last 100 dollars, and makes us come over to eat. and saved our apartment when no one else would help. erin's not miserable, she has a family, and this is a family that doesn't allow her to shut down and shut out.

She's tried, but it doesn't help.

And i'm just write u to let u know, thats she does wake up with a smile on her face, because we have this connection and we laugh 24/7. We hold eachother when someone who means so much passes away, and we hold eachother when we cry and dont know why. And we fight like sisters, but then tell eachother, scream at eachother,"STOP TRYING TO PUSH ME AWAY, I LOVE U, UR MY FAMILY, AND I'M NOT FUCKING GOING ANYWHERE!!!!" while having tears pour down our face.

She's an amazing person, and the Johnson's, are so proud of her and to have her in our life! She is happy, so dont think she's not. Erin and I... we're lucky, because there's ONE women named Lisa ( my mom) who doesn't just do things for me, but does them for erin as well. She doesn't just buy me food, or write a $900 check for rent for me, or spend $300 dollars on PG & E for just me, no, no, no, she does it for Erin and me, her girls, daughters, friends, her life. Thats family! And Erin is very loved!

And i know i probably shouldn't be butting in... but Erin wouldn't tell u anything, and i thought i should at least give u an IDEA of how we are and the family we have. That message was on my answering machine too.

I love that girl, and so does my mom. And it hurts me to know that people dont see that. But one thing i love about my mother... is when it comes to her spending money on that apartment, it's not only for me. it's for erin as well, and she didn't even know erin at first. But that never stopped her from wanting to help as MUCH as she could!

Erin's very much loved and respected and apart of this incredible family i've been blessed with!

So now u have an idea!

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paperflowers June 30 2005, 21:28:37 UTC
OH WAIT. ITS ALL BULLSHIT.
SUCKS TO BE ME.

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ansters July 28 2005, 17:16:28 UTC
Wait huh? i'm confused... what does this mean? and when did u send this? and why would u write this?

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paperflowers July 28 2005, 17:59:35 UTC
ha....a long time ago. when I was mad and sad that you told me your mom hated me and didn't want me to call.
I was responding to "erin is family she has a mom" - yeah. a while ago.

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ansters August 1 2005, 21:29:31 UTC
LOL yea this is why we need INTERNET!!! Getting shit like 3 weeks later is just causing confusion

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paperflowers August 1 2005, 21:38:35 UTC
nah...it shouldn't at this point.

"Dude. You fuckin bitch."
"No! I posted that hell of long ago!"
"Oh. Ok." *smooch smooch kiss kiss*

Fuckin dorks.

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ansters August 1 2005, 22:16:49 UTC
lol yea but that *smooch smooch kiss kiss* is just hiding what really happens... lol..... wow that lady is ANNOYING me again. I want to just brush her hair or something..... poor lady doesn't have a clue..... yea it doesn't really cause that big of confusion just kind of like wait huh? lol oh welll..... wow i just saw a mini katrina... the bitch is haunting me now... WTF!!!

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paperflowers August 1 2005, 22:23:22 UTC
WE NEED TO LEAVE!
FUCK!

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ansters August 1 2005, 22:25:30 UTC
LOL ok we can if u'd like

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ansters June 23 2005, 22:10:19 UTC
I dont even know if any of this will help.

But oh well i'm such a "horrible" person and daughter!

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paperflowers June 23 2005, 22:13:24 UTC
I just put it up there so your mom could see how you really feel about her.

I wish that my dad would stop being so defensive of my stepmother....him and I could have a much better relationship.

Parents seem to think that they're kids will always forgive them, and always be there....so they don't have to stand up for them - but they feel like they have to hang on to their spouse.....

if I ever have kids....they will ALWAYS come first. ALWAYS. My spouse will need to deal with it. I've learned a lot from my parents...about what NOT to do.

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ansters June 23 2005, 22:18:30 UTC
LOL me too. I wont ever choose dick before my kids. i wont put myself in the position of loosing my children.

Why parents do that is beyond me!

We're such dorks, we're sitting 2 seats away from eachother and we're typing on this lol. Kind of like when we use to text message! LOL

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paperflowers June 23 2005, 22:20:53 UTC
well, we could scream over the lady next to us.

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ansters June 23 2005, 22:26:18 UTC
i dont think she would like that too much. She's looking pretty searious and VERY into what she's doing at this moment. She might beat me with her cane..... well i dont see a cane but maybe those ugly sandals she's got on!

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paperflowers June 23 2005, 22:28:34 UTC
HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

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