feeling of regret...
there's a lot of regret coming to me now.
its already my 4th year in college (i know i have 2 years to go, but then my batchmates graduate in a year's time), and i feel like i was not able to make the most out of it.
its like i did not have that 'fun' i expected for my college, in ateneo. there was fun, yes, but not the way i expected it.
most of the time my expectations of 'fun' is always met by my company with my village friends, CSB friends/frisbee friends and my CSA barkada. and i guess that's the reason they're my core group of friends.
maybe i expected that it would be just like highschool. highschool where we (in CSA) would always have the time for each other, the batch as a whole. its normal to know everyone in the batch one way or another, that's why when you want to talk and relate with any of your batchmates, it is possible.
but on the other hand, in ateneo, everyone seems to be busy. its very rare (and its even a luxury) to have time with your friends their. well, at least in the course i'm in (MIS and AMF) everyone seems to be busy. that's why in the 3 years i have been in ateneo, i've only had the opportunity to have 5 friends who know me well and also i know well.
well i guess its quite impossible, my expectation that i will be able to have 'close ties' with at least 20 or so people with my batch in ateneo. that's because the 4 years with my batchmates in college really is not enough compared to the 13 years i spent with my batchmates in CSA.
to be fair, there's quite a number of people na 'nakakavibes' ko in ateneo. its just that there's not enough time to build on those ties. its either you only meet in the same classes with these people, or you see them in campus and then have the same breaks. my carpoolmates, whom i meet going to and from school.
thank god there's ASEC. (i'm sounding like a loser now, relying on ASEC for my social salvation in school) i was able to create new and strong ties with people from school because of this org. was even able to create 2 strong ties with foreign students because of this.
in conclusion, its clear for me that my college social life was really ok naman. its just that i want everything ata. hindi naman kasi kaya eh! si ansel talaga. limited lang ang oras natin. and choose to whom to spend it (wisely).
its already my 4th year in college (i know i have 2 years to go, but then my batchmates graduate in a year's time), and i feel like i was not able to make the most out of it.
its like i did not have that 'fun' i expected for my college, in ateneo. there was fun, yes, but not the way i expected it.
most of the time my expectations of 'fun' is always met by my company with my village friends, CSB friends/frisbee friends and my CSA barkada. and i guess that's the reason they're my core group of friends.
maybe i expected that it would be just like highschool. highschool where we (in CSA) would always have the time for each other, the batch as a whole. its normal to know everyone in the batch one way or another, that's why when you want to talk and relate with any of your batchmates, it is possible.
but on the other hand, in ateneo, everyone seems to be busy. its very rare (and its even a luxury) to have time with your friends their. well, at least in the course i'm in (MIS and AMF) everyone seems to be busy. that's why in the 3 years i have been in ateneo, i've only had the opportunity to have 5 friends who know me well and also i know well.
well i guess its quite impossible, my expectation that i will be able to have 'close ties' with at least 20 or so people with my batch in ateneo. that's because the 4 years with my batchmates in college really is not enough compared to the 13 years i spent with my batchmates in CSA.
to be fair, there's quite a number of people na 'nakakavibes' ko in ateneo. its just that there's not enough time to build on those ties. its either you only meet in the same classes with these people, or you see them in campus and then have the same breaks. my carpoolmates, whom i meet going to and from school.
thank god there's ASEC. (i'm sounding like a loser now, relying on ASEC for my social salvation in school) i was able to create new and strong ties with people from school because of this org. was even able to create 2 strong ties with foreign students because of this.
in conclusion, its clear for me that my college social life was really ok naman. its just that i want everything ata. hindi naman kasi kaya eh! si ansel talaga. limited lang ang oras natin. and choose to whom to spend it (wisely).