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Have you ever gotten that feeling where you want to fantard over pairings, but feel like you'll catch shit over it? I mean, it's nothing worthy of fandomsecrets or anything, but I'm just afraid that sometimes my flist and other friends might call me out over my slightly objectionable taste. I'm perfectly aware that certain fandoms in particular might turn into a minefield here if I attempt to post about them, since some of you adore them and others of you hate them.
But, er, aside from trying not to offend my, what, 10 or so people who read this journal...
What really keeps me from talking about pairings and whatnot is, heh, insecurity. Because, dude, it's hard to be a dude who likes watching/reading about dudes making out with dudes. Did I get my point across without saying 'dude' too many times? Ahaha... so yeah. I enjoy slash. The issue is that I'm male or at least male-identified for those pedants who'd correct me and attracted to females. So on the internet, where people identify me through my words and nothing else, they tend to assume I'm a chick, since I like slash and series filled with ho yay.
It doesn't help that 75% of LJ is female users. So this all builds up to make me feel so very insecure about A) my internet manhood and B) my taste in pairings. It's not healthy, but... IDK what I really want to do about it. I could be less up-front about liking dudes making out with dudes, and just come across as fandom-asexual like I do in most of my art but at least be more easy to identify as a dude and less likely to need to defend my masculinity. Or, barring that, I could continue to be up-front about liking dudes making out with dudes, which would be nice, and continue to vehemently defend the fact that, yes, I am male and attracted to females and still like this.
I suppose I'm a bit of a freak of nature, eh? A rare breed. I wouldn't blame you guys for thinking "he's definitely lying about at least one element of that sob story." Well, it ain't a sob story, and I ain't lying unless you're going to be a pedant about my biological sex boo hiss.
So yeah.
TL;DR ANSEMARU IS A HOMO
But, er, aside from trying not to offend my, what, 10 or so people who read this journal...
What really keeps me from talking about pairings and whatnot is, heh, insecurity. Because, dude, it's hard to be a dude who likes watching/reading about dudes making out with dudes. Did I get my point across without saying 'dude' too many times? Ahaha... so yeah. I enjoy slash. The issue is that I'm male or at least male-identified for those pedants who'd correct me and attracted to females. So on the internet, where people identify me through my words and nothing else, they tend to assume I'm a chick, since I like slash and series filled with ho yay.
It doesn't help that 75% of LJ is female users. So this all builds up to make me feel so very insecure about A) my internet manhood and B) my taste in pairings. It's not healthy, but... IDK what I really want to do about it. I could be less up-front about liking dudes making out with dudes, and just come across as fandom-asexual like I do in most of my art but at least be more easy to identify as a dude and less likely to need to defend my masculinity. Or, barring that, I could continue to be up-front about liking dudes making out with dudes, which would be nice, and continue to vehemently defend the fact that, yes, I am male and attracted to females and still like this.
I suppose I'm a bit of a freak of nature, eh? A rare breed. I wouldn't blame you guys for thinking "he's definitely lying about at least one element of that sob story." Well, it ain't a sob story, and I ain't lying unless you're going to be a pedant about my biological sex boo hiss.
So yeah.
TL;DR ANSEMARU IS A HOMO