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*Honest Section*
1. Honestly, what color is your shirt?
white
2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
mainly school starting back up in about a week. and a few other things.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
listening to Clutch, and whatever else is next on channel 910. Just finished a poem called
You Promised (You Cannot Save Me).
5. Honestly, are you in love?
with who? Myself? nope. Somebody else? neh...
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
does breathing count as a bad thing?
7. Honestly, do you watch Disney Channel?
occasionally
8.Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Suzy. However i did get a message from Jenni a little while ago but that's not exactly talking
on the phone now is it.
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
i'm jealous of my shadow.
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
i haven't honestly gotten mad in a long while, which is a good thing because i become a
completely different person when i'm angry, honestly the last time i was truely mad i went
mad, and nearly broke this kid's neck for a reason i cannot recall, i black out when it happens
and i just hurt people.
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
nope
12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
there's alot of people that i want to see and at the same time i don't want to see, because,
i don't want them to see me...
13. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
i'm starting to feel really bad that i haven't let anybody in ya'know? ever since Joslyn
abandoned me, i've just kept everything to myself. and that's not healthy.
14. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
hey, i'm everybody's buddy lol
15. Honestly, are you in denial?
sure... if it makes you feel good.
16. Honestly, do you like anyone?
like as in, like to make out with? or like as in, i respect them? Cuz yes for both cases.
17. Honestly, does anyone like you?
i hope people respect me at least, be awesum if sumbody would like to make out with me.
lol
*Anger Section*
1. What do you do when you're mad?
i only remember bits of these circumstances, they're nightmares. Haven't told anybody
this except for Joslyn, if there's nobody around me when i'm actually angry i punish myself
hit walls, i've cut myself before because of it, tried to kill myself, drown myself once,
and almost slaughtered some innocent kid. I hate myself so much sometimes.
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
the worst thing that i can remember is leaving this kid a bloody pulp, i don't even
remember what triggered it, how i snapped out of it, i don't remember the kids name,
just his face. And the looks i got the next few days, about a week later, i walked
down the hallway completely naked, and i was almost sent to a juvy, i was at a
theopist for awhile after that too.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
i don't know.
4. Do you swear when you're mad?
I use to swear ALL THE TIME, but then i finally changed and i only swear when
i'm just goofin' around with buds and when i'm a little annoyed, also, i do remember
this one thing, if i ever start to stutter, just leave me be and run away, cuz the next
thing you know i might be standing on your face.
*CRYING SECTION*
1. When was the last time you really cried?
when my grandpa and uncle died, i didn't even cry.... I tried so HARD to cry...
But i've cried too much when i was younger that my tear ducts are dry.
I was so mad at myself cuz i wouldn't cry for two men in my life that i felt
really loved me, and i just sat there, like i am now, trying to force the tears out
but nothing is flowing.
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
when i was younger
3. Do certain songs make you cry?
not for awhile
4. What usually makes you cry?
now-a-days pain really, or when dust or something gets in'em. but pain wise,
has to be ALOT of pain.
*HAPPY SECTION*
1. Are you normally a happy person?
no
2. What can make you happy?
music, writing and poetry, friends, video games, movies, pictures, animes,
but usually after thinking about or doing/being near something that makes me
happy i get really depressed.
3. Does being with your friends make you happy?
yeah, for awhile, and then i just become depressed the longer i stay near them.
For most people, for some people that doesn't happen, like around Ali, Suzy, Anna,
Danelia and Sarah I don't get depressed around them, but around other people i do.
4. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?
i fake a smile most of the time cuz i don't believe them, com'on, i may be a sexy beast
but i'm not good looking, pretty, gorgeous, cute, attractive or anything like that.
1. Honestly, what color is your shirt?
white
2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
mainly school starting back up in about a week. and a few other things.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
listening to Clutch, and whatever else is next on channel 910. Just finished a poem called
You Promised (You Cannot Save Me).
5. Honestly, are you in love?
with who? Myself? nope. Somebody else? neh...
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
does breathing count as a bad thing?
7. Honestly, do you watch Disney Channel?
occasionally
8.Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Suzy. However i did get a message from Jenni a little while ago but that's not exactly talking
on the phone now is it.
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
i'm jealous of my shadow.
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
i haven't honestly gotten mad in a long while, which is a good thing because i become a
completely different person when i'm angry, honestly the last time i was truely mad i went
mad, and nearly broke this kid's neck for a reason i cannot recall, i black out when it happens
and i just hurt people.
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
nope
12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
there's alot of people that i want to see and at the same time i don't want to see, because,
i don't want them to see me...
13. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
i'm starting to feel really bad that i haven't let anybody in ya'know? ever since Joslyn
abandoned me, i've just kept everything to myself. and that's not healthy.
14. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
hey, i'm everybody's buddy lol
15. Honestly, are you in denial?
sure... if it makes you feel good.
16. Honestly, do you like anyone?
like as in, like to make out with? or like as in, i respect them? Cuz yes for both cases.
17. Honestly, does anyone like you?
i hope people respect me at least, be awesum if sumbody would like to make out with me.
lol
*Anger Section*
1. What do you do when you're mad?
i only remember bits of these circumstances, they're nightmares. Haven't told anybody
this except for Joslyn, if there's nobody around me when i'm actually angry i punish myself
hit walls, i've cut myself before because of it, tried to kill myself, drown myself once,
and almost slaughtered some innocent kid. I hate myself so much sometimes.
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
the worst thing that i can remember is leaving this kid a bloody pulp, i don't even
remember what triggered it, how i snapped out of it, i don't remember the kids name,
just his face. And the looks i got the next few days, about a week later, i walked
down the hallway completely naked, and i was almost sent to a juvy, i was at a
theopist for awhile after that too.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
i don't know.
4. Do you swear when you're mad?
I use to swear ALL THE TIME, but then i finally changed and i only swear when
i'm just goofin' around with buds and when i'm a little annoyed, also, i do remember
this one thing, if i ever start to stutter, just leave me be and run away, cuz the next
thing you know i might be standing on your face.
*CRYING SECTION*
1. When was the last time you really cried?
when my grandpa and uncle died, i didn't even cry.... I tried so HARD to cry...
But i've cried too much when i was younger that my tear ducts are dry.
I was so mad at myself cuz i wouldn't cry for two men in my life that i felt
really loved me, and i just sat there, like i am now, trying to force the tears out
but nothing is flowing.
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
when i was younger
3. Do certain songs make you cry?
not for awhile
4. What usually makes you cry?
now-a-days pain really, or when dust or something gets in'em. but pain wise,
has to be ALOT of pain.
*HAPPY SECTION*
1. Are you normally a happy person?
no
2. What can make you happy?
music, writing and poetry, friends, video games, movies, pictures, animes,
but usually after thinking about or doing/being near something that makes me
happy i get really depressed.
3. Does being with your friends make you happy?
yeah, for awhile, and then i just become depressed the longer i stay near them.
For most people, for some people that doesn't happen, like around Ali, Suzy, Anna,
Danelia and Sarah I don't get depressed around them, but around other people i do.
4. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?
i fake a smile most of the time cuz i don't believe them, com'on, i may be a sexy beast
but i'm not good looking, pretty, gorgeous, cute, attractive or anything like that.