Have a nice life, Dawn
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I just told my best friend it was over today. It didn't hurt nearly as much as I expected it to. Actually, right now it doesn't hurt at all. I guess because I'm too angry. It's far too complicated to explain, but we've been friends for four years, and lovers (and wow does she get angry when I use that word, which should've been a clue. Defensive, much, chica?) for most of that, but I'm still her dirty little secret. Even her parents know that she'll sleep with random strangers she meets on the Internet, but I'm too shocking/embarrassing to fess up to. Hell, she was saying "I love you" and calling her boyfriend a guy that she'd known a week only through MySpace, but that was better than love from me! Oh, yes, we'll see how that goes!
I fell in love with her because I thought she was falling too, and by the time she said anything different (the classic "...but not like that."), it was far too late. Not that I believed her when she said it, because her actions were far different than her words, and one of the things she does best is lie, to herself and everyone around her. I thought one day she might come around. And who knows, she well might. But I won't be there. I'm tired of being played the fool, used and abused. I'm not a good-time Charley or fill-in girlfriend or a garage where they can park their troubles for a while (thanks for that wonderful line, Josh!), I'm a person who was in love, and was hurt badly by the one she loved. So, Dawn, I'm sorry that I was too black, too small, and too transsexual for you to feel I was a suitable partner. I'm sorry you're too blind to know love when you see it. I wish you well in your attainment of social acceptability, despite your poor start. I hope the smothering man you have now is a lot better than the emotionally abusive one you just left, or the physically and emotionally abusive one before that. I trust your judgement; it's been sterling so far. Go forth and be happy.
Quizzes! See?
Your Love Life is Like Casablanca
"Kiss me. Kiss me as if it were the last time."
For you, love is never finished. If you've loved someone once, you'll always love them.
You're an old fashioned romantic... even if your relationships don't end up as romantic as you'd like.
Your love style: Traditional and understated
Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Complicated and ambiguous
What Movie Is Your Love Life Like?
You Should Get An Asian Inspired Tattoo
Mysterious and expressive
You like to show off, but you also like to keep some allure
What Tattoo Should You Get?
You Are a Tomboy
You're having too much fun to bother with nail polish and crazy diets.
Guys are instead impressed by how much you know and do!
How Feminine Are You?
Your Passion is Purple
Sophisticated and classy, you're a bit picky about sex.
You're more likely to be turned on by a fancy hotel room than a dirty flick.
Sex is fine enough, as long as it doesn't mess up your hair.
For you, sex is more about power and favors than actually pleasure.
What Color Is Your Passion?
Your Love Element Is Fire
In love, you are a true listener and totally present.
For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt.
You attract others with your joy and passion.
Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate.
Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life.
And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal.
You connect best with: Wood
Avoid: Water
You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly
What Element Is Your Love?
I just told my best friend it was over today. It didn't hurt nearly as much as I expected it to. Actually, right now it doesn't hurt at all. I guess because I'm too angry. It's far too complicated to explain, but we've been friends for four years, and lovers (and wow does she get angry when I use that word, which should've been a clue. Defensive, much, chica?) for most of that, but I'm still her dirty little secret. Even her parents know that she'll sleep with random strangers she meets on the Internet, but I'm too shocking/embarrassing to fess up to. Hell, she was saying "I love you" and calling her boyfriend a guy that she'd known a week only through MySpace, but that was better than love from me! Oh, yes, we'll see how that goes!
I fell in love with her because I thought she was falling too, and by the time she said anything different (the classic "...but not like that."), it was far too late. Not that I believed her when she said it, because her actions were far different than her words, and one of the things she does best is lie, to herself and everyone around her. I thought one day she might come around. And who knows, she well might. But I won't be there. I'm tired of being played the fool, used and abused. I'm not a good-time Charley or fill-in girlfriend or a garage where they can park their troubles for a while (thanks for that wonderful line, Josh!), I'm a person who was in love, and was hurt badly by the one she loved. So, Dawn, I'm sorry that I was too black, too small, and too transsexual for you to feel I was a suitable partner. I'm sorry you're too blind to know love when you see it. I wish you well in your attainment of social acceptability, despite your poor start. I hope the smothering man you have now is a lot better than the emotionally abusive one you just left, or the physically and emotionally abusive one before that. I trust your judgement; it's been sterling so far. Go forth and be happy.
Quizzes! See?
Your Love Life is Like Casablanca
"Kiss me. Kiss me as if it were the last time."
For you, love is never finished. If you've loved someone once, you'll always love them.
You're an old fashioned romantic... even if your relationships don't end up as romantic as you'd like.
Your love style: Traditional and understated
Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Complicated and ambiguous
What Movie Is Your Love Life Like?
You Should Get An Asian Inspired Tattoo
Mysterious and expressive
You like to show off, but you also like to keep some allure
What Tattoo Should You Get?
You Are a Tomboy
You're having too much fun to bother with nail polish and crazy diets.
Guys are instead impressed by how much you know and do!
How Feminine Are You?
Your Passion is Purple
Sophisticated and classy, you're a bit picky about sex.
You're more likely to be turned on by a fancy hotel room than a dirty flick.
Sex is fine enough, as long as it doesn't mess up your hair.
For you, sex is more about power and favors than actually pleasure.
What Color Is Your Passion?
Your Love Element Is Fire
In love, you are a true listener and totally present.
For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt.
You attract others with your joy and passion.
Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate.
Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life.
And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal.
You connect best with: Wood
Avoid: Water
You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly
What Element Is Your Love?