the south will rise again..
I'm so happy to be up at Ole Miss this weekend. I needed to get away from work for a few days. Don't get me wrong I love being home in New Orleans. I wouldn't trade it for anything. But it is also fantastic to see friends and slip back into the college routine.
Chase and I got to talking this evening. I've always blamed myself when a relationship doesn't work out. Like i should have noticed something sooner to avoid being hurt or I shouldn't have acted a certain way. And i guess i'm usually right. But I just now realized just how much of my life has been taken away by one simple mistake. How much time i've wasted being sad and rejecting perfectly good guys just because of the one i was holding out for. I know now how foolish i was being. Despite my true feelings for someone else, i still let him back into my life just to screw me over. I'm glad he is no longer in my life. Who knows what other havoc he would reak. What he has taken away from me is unforgivable. I wish i could go back to last thanksgiving. I really liked where i was then.