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Work tonight was terrible. I have to leave my house by 810 to get to work on time for 9. I realize all of a sudden while playing with Google Earth that it is 752. I jump up get ready and somehow manage to be to my car for 812. Only my car wont start... We try to jump it... still nothing... its now 827. I hop in my sisters get to work only a few min late thanks to the lack of speed limit enforcement on my rout. So it seems at this point as thought everything will turn out just fine... WRONG! i made 12$ tonight. Oh yes i know that sounds ridiculous, probably because IT IS! So i guess the best part of the evening is that i got to get of early (about 1) and come home to blog... HA what a life i have...
A while back i made a list of things to do this summer and seeing as the summer is more than half way over i thought i would give a progress report. I have not done a single thing on my list. Not a one... pathetic. I guess i had better get on it.
Lawson continues to text me. The latest was a plea for me not to cut him out of my life. Well, it has been three weeks since i have spoken or written a word to him. I'm pretty sure that process has already begun. I just need a clean break i guess. He was far too abusive for me to ever be friends with again. But this has gotten be thinking. I asked Will not to cut me out of his and I'm not really sure if he did or not seeing as thought i made no effort to really stay in it. I would love to hear from him about anything really, his life, school, family. I dont know. I really miss him as a friend but i def do not have the guts to ever tell him that. So i wonder if i will feel that way about Lawson. Odds are no... but will i regret never again speaking to someone i loved so much. Will has made no effort to ever contact me so i guess by that example the answer is no i will not regret it. And Will and I parted under much more amiable circumstances. Who knows. Too much worrying once again as usual.