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[anqellauren]

this weekend has been fucking crazy. friday me and kathi went to the schools play, and it was really good. then we went out to eat, and then we went and saw the Passion of Christ. Lets just say thats the only movie that i cried from the beginning to the end. the feeling was so powerful and i felt like i couldnt catch my breath. I know i wasnt annoyingly crying so hard like the people behind us, that wouldnt stop kicking our chairs to the point where kathi turned around and told them to stfu, but i must of been semi-noticable, because the girl 3 seets down handed me her box of tissues. after the movie was over and everyone and their mamas were walking out of the theater the next group of ppl who were waiting to see it looked at us and were blown away w/ the emotion on our faces. i could tell when people were saying "okay.. maybe we shouldnt see this movie" after that we went to walmart and fucked around, and then went to giant eagle to get fat and eat ice cream. we stayed up taking funny pictures, talking, and watching tv, and then fell asleep. she woke me up w/ the chickens at like 9am and we just had an awesome time till i took her home at 12. It felt really content being able to hang out with the girls from JM outside of school, and still have a blast. I was really worried that I wouldnt be able to be myself around them, and that they would end up hating me, so i always would blow them off on the weekends. So i was pretty happy until i got the worse phone call ever. It was Lorie. She was crying and told me to come right over. I think i got to her house in .05 seconds. she flew right into my arms when i walked in the door. She was drag racing at 1 oclock in the morning and she TOTALED her fucking BRAND NEW loaded 2004 grandam. her car was wrecked so bad that i cant even believe she made it out alive. ALl i know is if something happened to her, i know i wouldnt be okay right now. i would slip farther into depression that i dont know what i would do with myself. im so happy that shes okay, but so angry that she let that happen. What pisses me off the most, is that she was drag racing with her boyfriend, that doesnt have a license, and HE LEFT HER at the crash sight, before the cops came "because she didnt want her mom to find out it was him" fuck that shit. He should of been man enough to except the consequences of his actions. How could he look at her crawling out of that car and leave her there by herself. thats fucked up, and i lost all respect for him. I've been w/ her for the past 6 hours, and shes been crying a lot. I've been trying to help her with everything she needs, since she can barly move her neck and shes severely bruised. I love that girl to death, shes like my own sister.. and i cant believe this happened. I hope shes going to be okay, mentally + phsyically. :\

I just want her to know that i'll always be here for her, no matter what happens.