Where did my life go?
All I do now is sleep, shower, eat, work, repeat.
Where the fuck did my life go?
I feel like a zombie, I really do, not a brain eating zombie, a brain washed zombie.
Nothing exciting happens, I don't make the effort.
What would be the point if I did?
I have like... two friends, out of everyone.
Not to say I was popular, but I'm outgoing and got along with everyone.
Not having friends isn't the problem I'm facing, it's not having someone to talk to.
No one to spill my guts out to.
I'd trade everything right now, just to have my brother back.
He's my number one on myspace, the background on my phone, his pictures are all over my dads house. I haven't seen my niece because looking at her reminds me of him.
He's the only one that understands what I'm going through and can give me decent advice, I write he doesn't write back..... I ask if he's called my dads house he says no, I send him my own money so he can buy soap and food, and drinks, how much longer is he going to be in jail... it's been almost 6 months.
Everyone always talks about how God gives you struggles, and tests you.... Well I don't do drugs, I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't rob people, I work to survive, so why does everything bad that can possibly happen to someone.... happen to me? My mom hit me, my dads a drug addict, my brothers a drug dealer.... If there's anything to make you strong I don't think it can get more fucked up then that.
In other news, I hate not having fucking cable. It use to drain out all the bad stuff.
So instead, I bought about 60-70 dollars worth the used books off of Amazon.
Haven't read:
Pure Sunshine
Stranger Then Fiction
A Clockwork Orange (which came from belguim)
Virgin Suicides
I am Legend
Have read:
Fight Club
Girl, Interrupted
Have read but lost:
Diary
Perks of being a wallflower
So now I own about half of the Chuck Palahniuk books he's written.
I just need::
Rant (the new one)
Fugitives and Refugees
Clown girl (him & Monica Drake)
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (him & Ken Kesey, Robert Faggen, Joe Sacco)
Error Humano
Der Simulant
Nonfiction
Lullaby
Snuff
Flug 2039
Nana (Literatura)
Where the fuck did my life go?
I feel like a zombie, I really do, not a brain eating zombie, a brain washed zombie.
Nothing exciting happens, I don't make the effort.
What would be the point if I did?
I have like... two friends, out of everyone.
Not to say I was popular, but I'm outgoing and got along with everyone.
Not having friends isn't the problem I'm facing, it's not having someone to talk to.
No one to spill my guts out to.
I'd trade everything right now, just to have my brother back.
He's my number one on myspace, the background on my phone, his pictures are all over my dads house. I haven't seen my niece because looking at her reminds me of him.
He's the only one that understands what I'm going through and can give me decent advice, I write he doesn't write back..... I ask if he's called my dads house he says no, I send him my own money so he can buy soap and food, and drinks, how much longer is he going to be in jail... it's been almost 6 months.
Everyone always talks about how God gives you struggles, and tests you.... Well I don't do drugs, I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't rob people, I work to survive, so why does everything bad that can possibly happen to someone.... happen to me? My mom hit me, my dads a drug addict, my brothers a drug dealer.... If there's anything to make you strong I don't think it can get more fucked up then that.
In other news, I hate not having fucking cable. It use to drain out all the bad stuff.
So instead, I bought about 60-70 dollars worth the used books off of Amazon.
Haven't read:
Pure Sunshine
Stranger Then Fiction
A Clockwork Orange (which came from belguim)
Virgin Suicides
I am Legend
Have read:
Fight Club
Girl, Interrupted
Have read but lost:
Diary
Perks of being a wallflower
So now I own about half of the Chuck Palahniuk books he's written.
I just need::
Rant (the new one)
Fugitives and Refugees
Clown girl (him & Monica Drake)
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (him & Ken Kesey, Robert Faggen, Joe Sacco)
Error Humano
Der Simulant
Nonfiction
Lullaby
Snuff
Flug 2039
Nana (Literatura)