[ "I've got open road ahead of me, & it goes as far as the eyes can see." ]
You guys are just so fucking beautiful; I don't say it enough.
No real updates-nothing resolved since my last string of angsty posts-but here I am, feeling heady and hopeful over the somewhat-late start of a new day. All I know is, something shifted somewhere close to Sunday night, like I've upgraded to some better version of myself. Not different so much as more. The sudden rush of self-esteem still overwhelms me, but I think I could get used to this.
Someone taped a dead crawdad to our door, and I'm so blissed-out that I'm willing to look at it as a sign of good luck, because I haven't truly stopped smiling since I found it there. Maybe yesterday is to blame for my good mood, maybe it's this new rush of weightlessness, and maybe it's the fact that I'm surrounded by so many incredible people that it takes actual effort to stay down, sometimes.
So really, this is my rambling way of saying thank you, that you'll never have to worry about me. As long as I have fabulous friends and Hanson singalongs and blurry blue mornings to wake into, I'm going to be just fine; can't help but. ♥