Spun
Ok, so I'm all sorts of spun right now... I've been saying for like a month how I need to just like a bundle of books and food and go solitary in the woods... I'm definately gonna have to do that really soon.. Only Not intire solitary, I'm too much of a pussy to go for more than a night by myself. I'm gonna try to call Chris and see if he wants to go... Only in philly there's no where to go away from people unless you wanna drive like an hour. He's pretty good at helping me get centered though... And for fucks sake I need centered. LOL My most recent problem is that I seem impotent in reading people anymore. I'm completely inable to interact with people unless I can read them to atleast be able to know what to expect... I think I kinda pissed off one of sharons friends cause I asked why she had a sudden interest in chilling with me. Afterwards I think she pulled one of those "My friends really drunk and needs a ride home." stunts to leave and never called back. I kinda feel bad cause I think she was straight up (What ever that consists of) and took it really personally when I asked her that.
Oh yeah, I definately put my foot right down my throat today with some one else... LOLOLOL I'm such a piece of shit, really I am. She made a comment about how this movie about a drug dealer stuck to close to home and I asked "What? Your parents were big coke runners and threw drug parties?" She just kinda looked at me and was like "No, just my dad." AHHHH I'm never fucking responding when anyone says anything!!! I can't be completely held responsible cause she was a nyacker... Who would have guessed that in a million years. Aparently she didn't care though.. Thank God on that.
So I chilled with Nicole most of the day. She's cool as shit. She all made me food in shit. Later on she came and chilled here with me hec and Christine. Christines such a fucking trip. Hec got a little tipsy and kept trying to grab my asswhen I'd sit down. He seriously gets off on tormenting me... At least it's better than last time cause he kept pulling my fucking ear. That's shit hurts.
My friend from pittsburgh keeps calling me. I'm not intirely sure I wanna answer it though. Last time I talked to her she was acting like it was abnormal to call and say hi to some one. My friend was telling me he saw her with his wife and she all sorts of stand-offish. I think part of the reason is that she's differnt. Not quit punk but a really toned down version of something... At least by pitts standards, here she'd be completely normal. Actually all my friends would love her... But I think she equates me and Nate as.... I don't know what. I don't know.. But I really wanna know how she's doing in all, but I refuse to feel like the friend that no one wants around. I don't know... Fuck it right...
Oh yeah, I definately put my foot right down my throat today with some one else... LOLOLOL I'm such a piece of shit, really I am. She made a comment about how this movie about a drug dealer stuck to close to home and I asked "What? Your parents were big coke runners and threw drug parties?" She just kinda looked at me and was like "No, just my dad." AHHHH I'm never fucking responding when anyone says anything!!! I can't be completely held responsible cause she was a nyacker... Who would have guessed that in a million years. Aparently she didn't care though.. Thank God on that.
So I chilled with Nicole most of the day. She's cool as shit. She all made me food in shit. Later on she came and chilled here with me hec and Christine. Christines such a fucking trip. Hec got a little tipsy and kept trying to grab my asswhen I'd sit down. He seriously gets off on tormenting me... At least it's better than last time cause he kept pulling my fucking ear. That's shit hurts.
My friend from pittsburgh keeps calling me. I'm not intirely sure I wanna answer it though. Last time I talked to her she was acting like it was abnormal to call and say hi to some one. My friend was telling me he saw her with his wife and she all sorts of stand-offish. I think part of the reason is that she's differnt. Not quit punk but a really toned down version of something... At least by pitts standards, here she'd be completely normal. Actually all my friends would love her... But I think she equates me and Nate as.... I don't know what. I don't know.. But I really wanna know how she's doing in all, but I refuse to feel like the friend that no one wants around. I don't know... Fuck it right...