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I wonder whether I prefer being happy and numb or sad but emotionally tuned into the world.
I certainly smile more and feel comfortable in myself in the first state, however I tend to feel like I'm missing something somewhere. That I'm disconnected from things, and I end up feeling confused and a little isolated - but yet, still content. It's the oddest thing.
When I'm sad - it can hurt so much. But at least something is happening inside of me.
The insomnia is getting pretty ridiculous.
I certainly smile more and feel comfortable in myself in the first state, however I tend to feel like I'm missing something somewhere. That I'm disconnected from things, and I end up feeling confused and a little isolated - but yet, still content. It's the oddest thing.
When I'm sad - it can hurt so much. But at least something is happening inside of me.
The insomnia is getting pretty ridiculous.