Worst Episode Ever!

[anothermike]

Hi! I think that one of the worst experiences anyone should ever go threw is running into an ex w/ their new hubby or whatever. Yea, so when that happens a guys options are A)Pretend Everything Is Kewl B)Leave In A Rush & Draw Alot Of Attention C)Pretend You Don't See Them D)Beat Thee Almighty Crap Out Of The New One And Only. Yes, I think

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[chinoiserie]

It's the kind of poetry that I've stopped trying to write. Trust me, I have "written" enough of that kind of stuff in my life to completely understand it. I think my view on relationships has only gotten me into trouble in my own head, so I'm trying to change it. I tend to stay in relationships far longer than I should, because I have this sick optimism that everything's going to work out if we try hard enough, and the thought of someone I'm with eventually leaving and *gasp* meeting someone else who *gasp* makes them happier...it hurts. That sinking, nauseating kind of hurt. It drives me nuts.

I assure you, it's not a "guy thing" to feel that way. My first super-big relationship lasted for three years - I moved halfway across the country to be near him - I've been over it, and over him, for a long time, but it still makes me cringe and get snippy when I read about how well he's doing with his new girlfriend, and horror of horrors - how much his parents like her. You're left thinking, "What's so great about HER???"

As much as I try to stay friends with my exes, and usually succeed, it's a strained and awkward kind of friendship. I don't like thinking of who they're with now, I don't like thinking of who they were with before me, and I certainly feel like shit if I know that someone else can do a better job. I don't like looking at an ex's new girlfriend, because the first thing I do is I start comparing myself to her, and it just gets ugly. Well, I don't let the ugly come out, but it's certainly ugly in my mind and that is just as uncool.

I do try, however, to realise that people do change and move on, and if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. It is most definitely painful, but it's the harsh and unfortunate truth.

Maybe that's why I keep pushing people away. Don't let yourself get like that, it's no fun.