Blahness...
I know I havent updated in a long time...there's just always so much going on here that I cant seem to find the time. But I think Im gonna start making time. This is my medium to vent, and I cant keep all that Im feeling right now bottled inside forever. I have to let it out somehow.
Anyway...Im a verry unhappy person right now...been like this for more than a week. Im not really gonna get into it. All I know is I hate feeling this way. I cant stand to be like this. Yeah, I do try to put on a front and act like everything is OK, but I know that Im not OK. But thats just how I deal. I just wish it could be the way it was. And no matter how many times its explained to me why it cant be like it was, I wont understand.
I was looking through my poetry/story notebook, and I came across this poem that I wrote. I dont remember when I wrote this poem, or whowhat inspired it...but as I was reading it, I realized that it applies very much to how I am feeling right now. Its weird. Maybe I wrote it before on some kind of premonition. Maybe I knew that I was going to feel this way one day. I should've known. These feelings should be normal to me by now. Im never good enough.
Anyway, this poem is very free-verse. I think I kinda just wrote it on a tangent, and this is what came out. It isnt very good, in fact i dont think its good at all, but it espresses my feelings, and isnt that the point of poetry anyway? Feedback would be cool- positive or negative, but if its negative, at least be nice, lol.
It doesnt have a title...
Why do the things that happen to me
Always seem to happen to me?
I do my best to treat people right
With an open mind, an open heart
And with that open heart
Comes an open, easy target
Waiting for you to break it to pieces
To tear it apart, to break my heart
It was you I looked to for happiness
It was you I looked to when I needed a smile
But now its you who breaks my heart
And now its you who tears me apart
Those lips, once so soft, the caress of your kiss
Now speak the evil that brings me pain
I cant confide
And I cant rely
I dont even know what to think
Your words have brought me to this place
And I pray that they can pull me up again
But who knows when that day will come?
Tomorrow, next year, maybe never
I dont know
Only you know
And its that which kills me
Come back to me...
Yeah so thats the poem. Its very freakin emo, but hey, whatever. Maybe Im just extra depressed because of this god damn all day hangover. Not fun.
P.S. Im sorry if that made you sad. I really am.
letlovelive
Anyway...Im a verry unhappy person right now...been like this for more than a week. Im not really gonna get into it. All I know is I hate feeling this way. I cant stand to be like this. Yeah, I do try to put on a front and act like everything is OK, but I know that Im not OK. But thats just how I deal. I just wish it could be the way it was. And no matter how many times its explained to me why it cant be like it was, I wont understand.
I was looking through my poetry/story notebook, and I came across this poem that I wrote. I dont remember when I wrote this poem, or whowhat inspired it...but as I was reading it, I realized that it applies very much to how I am feeling right now. Its weird. Maybe I wrote it before on some kind of premonition. Maybe I knew that I was going to feel this way one day. I should've known. These feelings should be normal to me by now. Im never good enough.
Anyway, this poem is very free-verse. I think I kinda just wrote it on a tangent, and this is what came out. It isnt very good, in fact i dont think its good at all, but it espresses my feelings, and isnt that the point of poetry anyway? Feedback would be cool- positive or negative, but if its negative, at least be nice, lol.
It doesnt have a title...
Why do the things that happen to me
Always seem to happen to me?
I do my best to treat people right
With an open mind, an open heart
And with that open heart
Comes an open, easy target
Waiting for you to break it to pieces
To tear it apart, to break my heart
It was you I looked to for happiness
It was you I looked to when I needed a smile
But now its you who breaks my heart
And now its you who tears me apart
Those lips, once so soft, the caress of your kiss
Now speak the evil that brings me pain
I cant confide
And I cant rely
I dont even know what to think
Your words have brought me to this place
And I pray that they can pull me up again
But who knows when that day will come?
Tomorrow, next year, maybe never
I dont know
Only you know
And its that which kills me
Come back to me...
Yeah so thats the poem. Its very freakin emo, but hey, whatever. Maybe Im just extra depressed because of this god damn all day hangover. Not fun.
P.S. Im sorry if that made you sad. I really am.
letlovelive