Boredom at work
Well I am stuck at work while everyone else has a good nights sleep, but at least I'm making money right?
I haven't written in here in forever. So I thought I might keep myself entertained.
Lets see, in the life of Cathy lots is happening but it doesn't seem like anything is.
First and foremost... most if not all of you already know, I'm back in school! Yay for me. It's going good. I seem to be stressing out at a normal level, nothing extreme. I like being back in school, even though I hate homework, i feel better about myself for being in school. I also never want to have to work as much as I did for as little as I got.
In other news. I got an almost boyfriend, but then he didn't have time to date me. That sounds bad, but he was actually really nice to me when we talked. We still see each other at work and we've hung out a few times since. I still don't know what to think about it. In away I think seeing him at work is a good thing, because it gave me small talk time to kind of get over being hurt, and I got to see the fact that he still likes me. He comes and talks to me at the end of his shift, every shift. i stayed the other night and had my shift drink with him and we talked for almost an hour or more, and just caught up on little stuff. I had a really good time with him. I realized that I missed him too, which made me start thinking. I'm not sure that it was completely him that I missed, though I did and part of me still does like him, but I think I missed the relationship stuff. I haven't really ever gotten to have much of it and I wasn't ready to give it up. Though I do think I am ok with not dating him anymore. Even if I wanted too I don't think very many people would be very happy with me if I did. Which I think is part of what makes me say that I don't want to date him again. I worry too much what other people think. Oh well. Now there might be someone else anyway. I think I could really like him, but I wish I would have started it off waaay different. Aside from the blatantly embarassing moment with him, I am also pissed and disapointed at myself for going to fast. I just don't want to start a relationship that way and I hate that that's what I do every time. I didn't go all the way or anything... but I went far enough. grrr. I need to learn self control. I think that is what I liked about the first guy is that we didn't do that for a little while, the most I got out of him was a goodnight kiss, and that was nice. I think I should be limited to 1 drink while out with guys that I am attracted too, otherwise I'm stupid. So now I don't know what to do, because I don't think I left the best impression of myself. Life is so awkward sometimes, or in my case a majority of the time.
Well I think I have ranted and rambled for long enough. maybe I'll write again soon... then again maybe not, seeing as how long I took this time. Who knows.
I haven't written in here in forever. So I thought I might keep myself entertained.
Lets see, in the life of Cathy lots is happening but it doesn't seem like anything is.
First and foremost... most if not all of you already know, I'm back in school! Yay for me. It's going good. I seem to be stressing out at a normal level, nothing extreme. I like being back in school, even though I hate homework, i feel better about myself for being in school. I also never want to have to work as much as I did for as little as I got.
In other news. I got an almost boyfriend, but then he didn't have time to date me. That sounds bad, but he was actually really nice to me when we talked. We still see each other at work and we've hung out a few times since. I still don't know what to think about it. In away I think seeing him at work is a good thing, because it gave me small talk time to kind of get over being hurt, and I got to see the fact that he still likes me. He comes and talks to me at the end of his shift, every shift. i stayed the other night and had my shift drink with him and we talked for almost an hour or more, and just caught up on little stuff. I had a really good time with him. I realized that I missed him too, which made me start thinking. I'm not sure that it was completely him that I missed, though I did and part of me still does like him, but I think I missed the relationship stuff. I haven't really ever gotten to have much of it and I wasn't ready to give it up. Though I do think I am ok with not dating him anymore. Even if I wanted too I don't think very many people would be very happy with me if I did. Which I think is part of what makes me say that I don't want to date him again. I worry too much what other people think. Oh well. Now there might be someone else anyway. I think I could really like him, but I wish I would have started it off waaay different. Aside from the blatantly embarassing moment with him, I am also pissed and disapointed at myself for going to fast. I just don't want to start a relationship that way and I hate that that's what I do every time. I didn't go all the way or anything... but I went far enough. grrr. I need to learn self control. I think that is what I liked about the first guy is that we didn't do that for a little while, the most I got out of him was a goodnight kiss, and that was nice. I think I should be limited to 1 drink while out with guys that I am attracted too, otherwise I'm stupid. So now I don't know what to do, because I don't think I left the best impression of myself. Life is so awkward sometimes, or in my case a majority of the time.
Well I think I have ranted and rambled for long enough. maybe I'll write again soon... then again maybe not, seeing as how long I took this time. Who knows.